JUNE 17, 2008

Ann,

I am going nuts. I love you and that is the end of the story. I do not care if you yell at me or say means things, I still love you and have been with you almost all my life. I promised you I will never leave okay. So you have your choice and you make it as personal as you want to. I am not giving up and not leaving until you tell me to. That is all I can say or am able to say. I am burning love and for you. I have always been that way since we met. I do things you may not like but I can explain if you ever give me the chance. Stalkers who send you pornographic material? I had no idea but I can imagine.

Listen to me and trust me. I believe that your impeachment and constant disobedience with both Clinton and some in the Republican Party has caused them to surround you or collapse in a matter I am familiar with. Sanity is close to Tim Russert. Tim Russert is very close to Hillary. You are in danger. I had this done to me also and I detected it. Jones is a nut. Rush all the sudden wants to be friends. Missouri-mule sounds suspicious. Stay with me okay and don’t leave my side, I need you girl! I’ll cut you loose when we are done okay, it’s your choice, and I will never hurt you. They ain’t got a clue.

Ann, you are one hell of a fighter. I am more of a combat type. You take my email and you contact me the minute you feel unsafe, X at yahoo. When we met you were sweet, generous, joking always, sarcastic and like me – trusting of the world. Obviously, we are still the same people but we have had to become warriors and go on a war path. You do not have to prove to anybody. You do not have to tell me. We have been together our entire life almost and when I hurt, you hurt; vice versa also.

You be careful. They seem like they are closing on you. I am closing on them. I have been closing on them and if they did not hit me; I would have been with you and working with you. I blame Bush for the final rip in our life tear. He ripped me and you apart and kept us apart while I was pinned down unlike the Clintons. I hate him and I blame him about our kids. I know you want kids so bad. I know you want a family and what we talk about. I know how you want to be held now. You do not have to tell me okay. But Bush in my book is a mole. He is after Reagan and he is pushing Reagan. I have more anger towards Bush than the Clintons. All I want is to just hold you and magically, it goes away! How fucked up is that? I loose my mind and go psycho and when I fall into your arms, I am like totally calm. Bush.

You are not the only one; they are closing in on me also. I got the master plan; I got the future of the Department of Defense. If they had let me, I would be running the show. Bush messed this up so badly while he pushed Obama or introduced him. Hell, if I would help Bush to fix Obama. We are talking anger or fury that is “scary” but “laughable.” It is not that we are cold, these people are totally nuts, lunatics and cannibals. Now look at you, you are smoking hot! I honestly want a kid with you and really soon. I am worried and cautioned about this. It will not change my love for you. I have spent my entire life almost with you. My love for you now is like maxed out; can I even get any worse?

We were never like this. They took advantage of us. They were such terrible predators. Turn left, the right hits you. Turn right, the left hits you. Treat them respectfully; they rip your heart out. Treat them mean, they become terrorists. What is left? (Don’t say it). I am talking about anger and fury you will not believe; and it has nothing to do with who we are but who they are. I know I love you more than the world and I am just like you. That is all you need to cure you and fix you. It feels so good doesn’t it! Go do an interview and let’s hear you and see the smile! Oh yeah, and I am like dysfunctional now because I am loved with you then in anger management trying to deal with Bush. Imagine what I would be if he was a Democrat!

Who do you trust Ann, yes me. I love you. I will never ever leave your side. These fuckers are pissing me off. No, you are the girl I loved back in the late 80s. You are still the girl of my dream and so much more. Do you hear that, you are so much more and I love you? I love you more than the world even if these things happened. Do not let that change you or me. It has not. We are the same people, only warriors for the time being. Don’t give me this bullshit about how you are such a terrible person now. I get angry and upset only because I am dealing with a jackass. When that jackass is gone or in jail, I am back to good; the same with you so… shush. I love you and always will.

You trust me so much don’t you! I told you, I am one lucky dude. My god, Ann I will say it again; never in my entire life would I have thought you would grow to who you are. Never! You tell me if you still want kids or not okay. I know you really really wanted to and to stand by the door when I came home and to have those conversations. That’s awesome! I might introduce you to the other Generals and warriors who will freak knowing what kind of warrior you are! I am so proud of you and how careful you are around these scoundrels who are trying to slice your throat. I wish I could jump in there! I really wish I could stand by my girl. They do not know I been with you all my life and I am like a copy blue print of you. And the things I say to you, how passionate and strong they are; oh, like overnight two people talk like that! LOL.

Remember what we said when we started this? There is no book or no course. You have to read so much or take so many courses. Then I set out to prove several things. Thank you my little darling for catching me when and if I fell. Your books are so professional and literally genius. I am at awe with you and must kiss you sweet and soft hands Ann. I know who you are so it’s no biggie. We have come so far since 1989 and tell me if you or I grew so much since then? I love you okay. By the way, do you think I am bored? Ha, you know I am nuts! But then, take a hard good look at who you are with and the long tradition of the military in their blood.

Funny stuff lady,

Your “cough cough”
Alex