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Showing posts with label FAMILY. Show all posts
Showing posts with label FAMILY. Show all posts
Friday, December 18, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
DAY 1: FT. HOOD, VA TECH, 911 CONFESSION; BIGGER GOVT; PART OF OUR FAMILY; SEX EDUCATION; CIVIL WAR; BEAT OUR FRIENDS TO; INFLUENTIAL; NOV 9, 2009
So you all use Arab terrorists in order to make the situation work between the Arabs and Israel; Palestine. Also you use the terrorists in America to increase tolerance and Civil Rights issues. You want the Arabs to sue over civil rights. Also, there is a history of bad relations between Jews, blacks, black Muslims, Arab Muslims, Arabs, and Palestine.
The first round of confessions and truth telling; arrest pending and says it is not going to happen; has a friend in the white house. http://getthehelloutofmy.blogspot.com/
http://cybwarsatwarhq.blogspot.com/
Afghanistan Briefing: http://moresuspects.blogspot.com/
Thursday, October 15, 2009
THE NFL PLOT; MOST VIOLENT GAME ALIVE; OWN IT; IMPORTANT DATES: 1860s, 1939, 1941-1945, 1950s, 1960s, 1979, 1988, 1993-4, 1998, 2000-2002, 2006, AND
The Rush Limbaugh NFL, most violent sport, showdown with the US Army counter Terrorist forces, and now satellites on them by FBI, CIA, and the Pentagon; get used to it because he is not able to defeat them and this case we have on them. The Rush Limbaugh NFL plot and why he was dumped from this financial group. The Rush Limbaugh Show has moved (TX now)! Thursday, October 15, 2009 OPENING MONOLOGUE: http://getthehelloutofmy.blogspot.com/
Dear Ann Coulter: Reward for them $$$: http://cybwarsatwarhq.blogspot.com/
Afghanistan a briefing, Stage 1: Deployment and Preparation: http://moresuspects.blogspot.com/
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
PRIVATE FAMILY FILMS THROUGH THE YEARS AND THE MOVIE MANHUNTER; SEPT 16, 2009
Private family films; video clip, dates, dinners, and the final date! We know they are all anti-Vietnam and liberals-middle. They are seeking revenge; now we are the outsider and pariah in hiding. That is the Red Dragon who was stalking and watching us.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
FROM REPRESENTATIVES OF THE MILITARY OR ANALYSIS OF STARS AND STRIPES: STUCK WITH A STUPID, HATEFUL, IGNORANT, MEAN, AND DIFFICULT HONKEY HONEY? AUG 9
http://responses2satwar.blogspot.com/
I wish I had the power and strength to do what the editor of the biggest military newspaper did; however, I am all entangled and the voice of god chugs, trips, and stumbles all the time now. Is Ann Coulter a trouble kid and a pain in the ass honkey honey? I hate and I cannot stand these types, cannot stand them. I was kidnapped in 1998 and for better or worse am stuck with Ann; I do not know if I like it yet because she has not told me all; she says it is all work and no play. She says she worked to the bone for us and I see this 80 to 90 per cent; the rest I am kept away and her secret life. I have no idea, she could be and may have been... that is why I had said no and she cried, begged, and asked for my friendship as she tried to work this out; I gave her the benefit of the doubt; but I must say I got stuck with her and she is not who I ordered up or dream of. She dreams of me. I see her as some difficult pain in the ass catholic kid who I despise and associate with ADHD, bipolar, or unions. I like the Alexis Glick types who are in total control and goes in there and just stabs the fuck out of people and is professional about it, no drama or emmotions. Insulting the voice of God and the military? Stomping on the pure and genuine heart? Military wives cannot be exposed to this secret life and unconvincing behavior of a bad honky being rescued.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
ANN COULTER HAS ASKED RUSH LIMBAUGH OUT! READ THE ENTIRE ROMANCE AND WEDDING PLANS!
Sunday, February 22, 2009 This man is unstoppable and the voice and leader of the Republican Party no less conservatism. Read the details of this romance made in heaven, it has been a long journey but the best man won:
http://getthehelloutofmy.blogspot.com/
http://getthehelloutofmy.blogspot.com/
Monday, February 16, 2009
DEAR MICKEY KAUS: 2-16-2009: WELFARE REFORM, CALIFORNIA, AND SHE IS IN NEW YORK NOW
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Monday, July 28, 2008
JUNE 4, 2008
6-4-08
Let me explain what happed. After I got out of college, I pursued my career as expected. Then it felt like I hit a brick wall. I began to feel someone holding me back and preventing me from going further or seeing what was going on. I tried to go around that brick wall, under it, over it, and even through it. I gave up and they not only were holding me back, they were trying to inflict as many wounds as possible. I had financial chaos and utter depression, I tried to exercise nonstop and lift weights to get my mind off the situation.
I felt someone was playing cupid with me and interfering in my personal life. When I got fed up and just disgusted, I went to the beach and met your identical twin but 25 years younger. She was the most beautiful girl I had seen and she only wanted to stand beside me and call out my name when I came in the room. People would snap to attention and she loved it. I figured that you had given up because you had to get married and have kids. If you did not do it now, then you will never naturally. I blocked everything out and moved on; I figured I got some trade or someone who knew you could not have kids was replacing you because you had moved on. It was love at first sight and kept my memories of you, everything. However, I know and knew this was not the same person; I know this and ignored it.
Everything felt right and good. You would marry a rich person, I would marry your identical twin and take care of her and start a new life. Then the people holding me back managed to get me put in federal prison. I gave up and stop thinking of your image and face all together. When I got out, I was so overweight and a mess. I had been in so many fist fights. I was drugged up so heavily, fed and kept comatose. I gave up on you did not know why you would not do the logical thing as I did and marry and tried to settle down and have kids finally, it was the last chance. I for certain would not make it and was being held back, I think, and here was your identical twin.
That was ten years ago. Had nobody held me back, we would have been married and you would have had kids or a chance Maybe it would take two years or so to meet, but the chance to have a family would be available to you. Why you chose not to I do not understand. When you are ready to tell me please let me know. I knew I would not make it and I knew you had a chance so I gave up and moved on. But I got your identical twin that was only 22 years old.
When you finally called and told me about artificial insemination and the new scientific developments, it relieved me. The doctors said that even in your elderly ages you can still have kids, but the eggs must be preserved if not already. I am sure you did this and did not give up. Well, missy I am not going to give up either and I am just as mad, maybe even madder. But things are good and it makes me feel good all over again.
Maybe it was a cruel joke to pull us apart. Maybe it was some "birth control" and maybe it was pure "hate" by people who wanted to play cupid or intervene in something they had no business in doing. I was told these people were protecting me and giving me better choices while making my life suffer. I am sure it hurt you more than it hurt me, so that is all I will say. It is like taking someone's heart and ripping it out of their body, then showing it to them to show how powerful they are and how helpless you are.
If this is politico's poser Ann Coulter, then all I have to say is I love and totally adore Ann Coulter, the most gorgeous and classy woman I have ever met. I fell in love with her twin the minute I met her and the same thing. Let me also say that someone had to wait 4 years while I was in federal prison getting in fist fights and jumped by black Muslims and some hairy Jewish guy who tried to jump on my back so I would not kill the Black Muslim. That is how they fight in prison. You know what, when you get in enough fist fights in federal prison, you learn to lock the door and she what kind of person they are. I think they were trying to put you in prison also babe, be careful because it is all bogus. They were some deranged stalking fan and your worst enemy. I fought all of them and did not have any alliance with anyone; it was some crazy crack pot idea. I also had to fight the white supervise in federal prison.
This means that the woman I love with all my heart and would pour my soul over, waited and waited and waited, and I never showed up. When I did, I was fat and recovering from a coma so I could not speak for almost a year. Then maybe she was a little mad because of what happened or who was behind it? I'm sure she did what she could. I’m my sweetest sweetheart has had a chance and has thought about leaving many times given how it was so long of a wait and I never showed up. So I have never seen a grown woman cry or bawl her brains out, but I’m sure sometimes the ignorance and hate in this world by the leftist commies make people disgusted and feel this violent impulse. I would love to whine and cry about human rights but I am beyond feelings. So if anyone needs a round of applause, then it is her. But if it was meant to be, then someone made it harder because maybe she wanted kids. That is almost 8 years waiting and constant missing or wrong timing. There are some people who leave a mark on your life and some people who are forever marked to make you feel good all over. It makes you feel good over and over. So if anyone has the right to be mad, then it’s her. I had been sad so many days and wrote so many poems in my sadness hoping to meet up with someone I had known a long time ago and was just waiting patiently and I had no idea.
Let me explain what happed. After I got out of college, I pursued my career as expected. Then it felt like I hit a brick wall. I began to feel someone holding me back and preventing me from going further or seeing what was going on. I tried to go around that brick wall, under it, over it, and even through it. I gave up and they not only were holding me back, they were trying to inflict as many wounds as possible. I had financial chaos and utter depression, I tried to exercise nonstop and lift weights to get my mind off the situation.
I felt someone was playing cupid with me and interfering in my personal life. When I got fed up and just disgusted, I went to the beach and met your identical twin but 25 years younger. She was the most beautiful girl I had seen and she only wanted to stand beside me and call out my name when I came in the room. People would snap to attention and she loved it. I figured that you had given up because you had to get married and have kids. If you did not do it now, then you will never naturally. I blocked everything out and moved on; I figured I got some trade or someone who knew you could not have kids was replacing you because you had moved on. It was love at first sight and kept my memories of you, everything. However, I know and knew this was not the same person; I know this and ignored it.
Everything felt right and good. You would marry a rich person, I would marry your identical twin and take care of her and start a new life. Then the people holding me back managed to get me put in federal prison. I gave up and stop thinking of your image and face all together. When I got out, I was so overweight and a mess. I had been in so many fist fights. I was drugged up so heavily, fed and kept comatose. I gave up on you did not know why you would not do the logical thing as I did and marry and tried to settle down and have kids finally, it was the last chance. I for certain would not make it and was being held back, I think, and here was your identical twin.
That was ten years ago. Had nobody held me back, we would have been married and you would have had kids or a chance Maybe it would take two years or so to meet, but the chance to have a family would be available to you. Why you chose not to I do not understand. When you are ready to tell me please let me know. I knew I would not make it and I knew you had a chance so I gave up and moved on. But I got your identical twin that was only 22 years old.
When you finally called and told me about artificial insemination and the new scientific developments, it relieved me. The doctors said that even in your elderly ages you can still have kids, but the eggs must be preserved if not already. I am sure you did this and did not give up. Well, missy I am not going to give up either and I am just as mad, maybe even madder. But things are good and it makes me feel good all over again.
Maybe it was a cruel joke to pull us apart. Maybe it was some "birth control" and maybe it was pure "hate" by people who wanted to play cupid or intervene in something they had no business in doing. I was told these people were protecting me and giving me better choices while making my life suffer. I am sure it hurt you more than it hurt me, so that is all I will say. It is like taking someone's heart and ripping it out of their body, then showing it to them to show how powerful they are and how helpless you are.
If this is politico's poser Ann Coulter, then all I have to say is I love and totally adore Ann Coulter, the most gorgeous and classy woman I have ever met. I fell in love with her twin the minute I met her and the same thing. Let me also say that someone had to wait 4 years while I was in federal prison getting in fist fights and jumped by black Muslims and some hairy Jewish guy who tried to jump on my back so I would not kill the Black Muslim. That is how they fight in prison. You know what, when you get in enough fist fights in federal prison, you learn to lock the door and she what kind of person they are. I think they were trying to put you in prison also babe, be careful because it is all bogus. They were some deranged stalking fan and your worst enemy. I fought all of them and did not have any alliance with anyone; it was some crazy crack pot idea. I also had to fight the white supervise in federal prison.
This means that the woman I love with all my heart and would pour my soul over, waited and waited and waited, and I never showed up. When I did, I was fat and recovering from a coma so I could not speak for almost a year. Then maybe she was a little mad because of what happened or who was behind it? I'm sure she did what she could. I’m my sweetest sweetheart has had a chance and has thought about leaving many times given how it was so long of a wait and I never showed up. So I have never seen a grown woman cry or bawl her brains out, but I’m sure sometimes the ignorance and hate in this world by the leftist commies make people disgusted and feel this violent impulse. I would love to whine and cry about human rights but I am beyond feelings. So if anyone needs a round of applause, then it is her. But if it was meant to be, then someone made it harder because maybe she wanted kids. That is almost 8 years waiting and constant missing or wrong timing. There are some people who leave a mark on your life and some people who are forever marked to make you feel good all over. It makes you feel good over and over. So if anyone has the right to be mad, then it’s her. I had been sad so many days and wrote so many poems in my sadness hoping to meet up with someone I had known a long time ago and was just waiting patiently and I had no idea.
JUNE 10, 2008
Hey,
This is Alex. You and I know I am destined to marry Ann Coulter and things got really messed up. Seems like we are pushing the envelope too far and got a little surprise which was a quick wake up call; I still want to be destined to marry Ann Coulter. So here me out okay SS and See and give me a moment of time.
I feel there is some conspiracy and the liberals feel that I or Ann had something to do with the death of this John Kennedy Jr. I was too busy being attacked and wounded to be thinking about some guy I neither know nor care for. I doubt if Ann even had any idea about his plans or has any involvement. She is not a stalker and she does not follow liberals. She might follow me, but why follow someone you just hate.
So maybe my 3 year hiatus in prison was some crazy crack pot conspiracy theory. I took that punch and was so heavily injured my sister got me a passport. So when I got the strength, I began to head for the border. I want to marry Ann now and have kids. However, my intentions were not to stop at the border, they would not allow me to cross even if I had my passport, military papers, social security, etc… they said to get dual citizenship by acquiring Canadian citizenship first and they would expedite it. Then my home got invaded and more problems.
If I was destined to marry Ann Coulter and have kids and settle down, then lets say we are pushing this as far as it can go. Ann has passed the age of 44 and cannot have babies any longer. The doctors said they can place an fertilized egg in her until she is 70 years old, so that is another 30 years worth of child bearing years for her. I love her so much but this is such an ordeal. I feel that Al Qu”Ida got a little too close for me and someone called them who was doing something to me in Virginia. Ann was living in Maryland at the time and I knew where she was. This just got too dangerous.
If you ask Ann, then you tell her it is too dangerous to be playing around. Had they not stopped me, I probably would be up north and in Canada trying to get my books published and my satellites built. I honestly do not know what is going on or what my role is, all I know is the liberals are dead in my book. If I ever catch up with them or ever get the chance, they are dead in my book. The pain and the injuries they put on me have never healed.
I have always loved Ann and never wanted to just leave. It is kind of hard when you have Al Qu”Ida or their leaders on your ass though. I really want to marry Ann and have kids with her. I love her more than the world and she is truly everything. Now I am so confused and so what to do? I was planning to change the plans and go to San Diego and then go across to Mexico. Maybe come back again and live on my military pension. Canada seemed like the logical choice.
So Ann Coulter has stopped me now. I have told her my feelings and how this was so messed up. I have tried to tell her that I was getting hit harder than she even knows. That is why I am on the border now and why I did not stop; I am not joking. I tried several times to cross into Canada and got stopped. I asked my brother to arrange my next move to Mexico I figure even if I do not speak Spanish.
Ann if this is you, listen to me babe and my love. I love you and I have spilled my guts to you. I am so hurt and I am so deeply injured by this whole ordeal. Do you blame me for turning my back and now getting this crap about “moving on” which really hurt also? It did hurt when I heard it originally. I have had so many bad things happen I do not even know how to challenge one in court. When I do, they refuse to take the complaint and law suit. That has been how it has been for a decade. I cannot sit here and have my life shredded and destroyed any longer. I was also trying to find a Canadian girl and use her to move or settle down. I didn’t care.
Ann sweetheart, listen to me if you love me. I want to marry you and have the kids we were supposed to. It is kind of difficult under the circumstances. I am also abandoning and ditching my condo in Virginia. My cars are stored with a family friend. If you are here to say something and want me to come to you, then you better hurry. Things are getting hairy, things are already as messed up as they will get, I have thrown my cards down and found out who the players are. This is why I am headed for Mexico. All I have to do is meet up with the British, pretty easy.
Either you take that plunge or wait longer. I cannot get anymore mad about this or take any more days without you. I am getting pummeled or was and it is revenge. They have revenge in their blood; the only thing that has saved me is my cards. I have yet to throw them down, it is my ticket out. I find it very hard to believe that you have contacted me in such a predicament to just say hi. I am aware of what happened to you and trust me; I got it ten times worse and daily. Just tell me what to do or what you want me to do. We missed or something because everything is messed up and out of whacked. I am more than mad and I am sure you are also because of this. I am surprised you do not feel betrayed I abandoned or walked away from you leaving you out there all by yourself.
I am so sorry for forgetting you. I love you more than my own life but this is so hard and so difficult. I am trying to communicate to you how deeply I am hurt and what I feel the best way I can. I love you so much and with all my heart, I swear. So, you have stopped me on the border and right before I turn around and try to head towards Mexico. We can still get married and have babies. All you have to do is close your eyes and tell me what you want to name them okay, I love you and that is all I can offer, my love. You have all of my love and everything inside me. Why the fuck is I turning away from you and almost lost you? Why are these people holding me down and doing this to you?
You look ten times more beautiful then when you started your first book. You know how I feel beaten up “a beating they will never forget.” You have left the area also. If we are going to make it or make this work, then it has to be now okay. I am not going to say nothing or make up your mind. I figure you have gone through hell and have been hurt enough. To say you do not cry is a lie, I will never leave okay. We are too close and this is more painful than you can even know. Yes, it feels like death but when you are getting pumuled and you life and career is how it is, why are you sticking around with me? See what I mean, that is true love and why. You caught me right in the middle of my change in venue to Mexico.
I would kiss your feet. You know how much I love you. You know what we have been through together and you know how much I need you. I want to have our kids and be with you so bad but I waited and waited and you just never showed up so I left. Maybe you tried to help and then left when I let go also. It has been so long and this ordeal has been so difficult Ann. I need you to make up your mind and take immediate actions; this is no time to be shooting blanks. I am not getting younger either and soon I am not going to be so handsome to you, trust me. These people are vicious. Do you remember what happened last time? Well, can you blame me for heading to the border? I need you so bad and please come and get me while you have me or have something to hold onto. I just figured you moved on.
Ann, here is that song by Richard Marx, I think you know it. I am not giving up on your promise or my promise, never. You waited to long or did I? I got smashed and pummeled. We are missing 4 or 5 years from our lives, at least I am. I do not care about fame, fortune, and money and you know this. You also know I already have all of that, so hurry up or walk away from it like I had 20 years ago. Maybe you never forgave me for that but now its ten years after that. I love you and forever will with all my heart. At least be honest and leave it alone if you choose that. I have written to you already about how I feel. I screwed you once, now it is mutual I guess? I am not mad okay and understand as I have said. I just have nothing left inside to give anymore.
This is Alex. You and I know I am destined to marry Ann Coulter and things got really messed up. Seems like we are pushing the envelope too far and got a little surprise which was a quick wake up call; I still want to be destined to marry Ann Coulter. So here me out okay SS and See and give me a moment of time.
I feel there is some conspiracy and the liberals feel that I or Ann had something to do with the death of this John Kennedy Jr. I was too busy being attacked and wounded to be thinking about some guy I neither know nor care for. I doubt if Ann even had any idea about his plans or has any involvement. She is not a stalker and she does not follow liberals. She might follow me, but why follow someone you just hate.
So maybe my 3 year hiatus in prison was some crazy crack pot conspiracy theory. I took that punch and was so heavily injured my sister got me a passport. So when I got the strength, I began to head for the border. I want to marry Ann now and have kids. However, my intentions were not to stop at the border, they would not allow me to cross even if I had my passport, military papers, social security, etc… they said to get dual citizenship by acquiring Canadian citizenship first and they would expedite it. Then my home got invaded and more problems.
If I was destined to marry Ann Coulter and have kids and settle down, then lets say we are pushing this as far as it can go. Ann has passed the age of 44 and cannot have babies any longer. The doctors said they can place an fertilized egg in her until she is 70 years old, so that is another 30 years worth of child bearing years for her. I love her so much but this is such an ordeal. I feel that Al Qu”Ida got a little too close for me and someone called them who was doing something to me in Virginia. Ann was living in Maryland at the time and I knew where she was. This just got too dangerous.
If you ask Ann, then you tell her it is too dangerous to be playing around. Had they not stopped me, I probably would be up north and in Canada trying to get my books published and my satellites built. I honestly do not know what is going on or what my role is, all I know is the liberals are dead in my book. If I ever catch up with them or ever get the chance, they are dead in my book. The pain and the injuries they put on me have never healed.
I have always loved Ann and never wanted to just leave. It is kind of hard when you have Al Qu”Ida or their leaders on your ass though. I really want to marry Ann and have kids with her. I love her more than the world and she is truly everything. Now I am so confused and so what to do? I was planning to change the plans and go to San Diego and then go across to Mexico. Maybe come back again and live on my military pension. Canada seemed like the logical choice.
So Ann Coulter has stopped me now. I have told her my feelings and how this was so messed up. I have tried to tell her that I was getting hit harder than she even knows. That is why I am on the border now and why I did not stop; I am not joking. I tried several times to cross into Canada and got stopped. I asked my brother to arrange my next move to Mexico I figure even if I do not speak Spanish.
Ann if this is you, listen to me babe and my love. I love you and I have spilled my guts to you. I am so hurt and I am so deeply injured by this whole ordeal. Do you blame me for turning my back and now getting this crap about “moving on” which really hurt also? It did hurt when I heard it originally. I have had so many bad things happen I do not even know how to challenge one in court. When I do, they refuse to take the complaint and law suit. That has been how it has been for a decade. I cannot sit here and have my life shredded and destroyed any longer. I was also trying to find a Canadian girl and use her to move or settle down. I didn’t care.
Ann sweetheart, listen to me if you love me. I want to marry you and have the kids we were supposed to. It is kind of difficult under the circumstances. I am also abandoning and ditching my condo in Virginia. My cars are stored with a family friend. If you are here to say something and want me to come to you, then you better hurry. Things are getting hairy, things are already as messed up as they will get, I have thrown my cards down and found out who the players are. This is why I am headed for Mexico. All I have to do is meet up with the British, pretty easy.
Either you take that plunge or wait longer. I cannot get anymore mad about this or take any more days without you. I am getting pummeled or was and it is revenge. They have revenge in their blood; the only thing that has saved me is my cards. I have yet to throw them down, it is my ticket out. I find it very hard to believe that you have contacted me in such a predicament to just say hi. I am aware of what happened to you and trust me; I got it ten times worse and daily. Just tell me what to do or what you want me to do. We missed or something because everything is messed up and out of whacked. I am more than mad and I am sure you are also because of this. I am surprised you do not feel betrayed I abandoned or walked away from you leaving you out there all by yourself.
I am so sorry for forgetting you. I love you more than my own life but this is so hard and so difficult. I am trying to communicate to you how deeply I am hurt and what I feel the best way I can. I love you so much and with all my heart, I swear. So, you have stopped me on the border and right before I turn around and try to head towards Mexico. We can still get married and have babies. All you have to do is close your eyes and tell me what you want to name them okay, I love you and that is all I can offer, my love. You have all of my love and everything inside me. Why the fuck is I turning away from you and almost lost you? Why are these people holding me down and doing this to you?
You look ten times more beautiful then when you started your first book. You know how I feel beaten up “a beating they will never forget.” You have left the area also. If we are going to make it or make this work, then it has to be now okay. I am not going to say nothing or make up your mind. I figure you have gone through hell and have been hurt enough. To say you do not cry is a lie, I will never leave okay. We are too close and this is more painful than you can even know. Yes, it feels like death but when you are getting pumuled and you life and career is how it is, why are you sticking around with me? See what I mean, that is true love and why. You caught me right in the middle of my change in venue to Mexico.
I would kiss your feet. You know how much I love you. You know what we have been through together and you know how much I need you. I want to have our kids and be with you so bad but I waited and waited and you just never showed up so I left. Maybe you tried to help and then left when I let go also. It has been so long and this ordeal has been so difficult Ann. I need you to make up your mind and take immediate actions; this is no time to be shooting blanks. I am not getting younger either and soon I am not going to be so handsome to you, trust me. These people are vicious. Do you remember what happened last time? Well, can you blame me for heading to the border? I need you so bad and please come and get me while you have me or have something to hold onto. I just figured you moved on.
Ann, here is that song by Richard Marx, I think you know it. I am not giving up on your promise or my promise, never. You waited to long or did I? I got smashed and pummeled. We are missing 4 or 5 years from our lives, at least I am. I do not care about fame, fortune, and money and you know this. You also know I already have all of that, so hurry up or walk away from it like I had 20 years ago. Maybe you never forgave me for that but now its ten years after that. I love you and forever will with all my heart. At least be honest and leave it alone if you choose that. I have written to you already about how I feel. I screwed you once, now it is mutual I guess? I am not mad okay and understand as I have said. I just have nothing left inside to give anymore.
JUNE 9, 2008
Dear SS and See;
Hi. I tried to tell you how hurt and how confused my life has been since oh… 1998. I cannot really speak of very many good things since then. Moreover, from 2001 to 2004 I spent life incarcerated and empty. The only time when I had a brief moment of happiness and sense of peace was in 2000 and meeting the twin of Ann Coulter at Ocean City, MD. She was the prettiest and most pure woman I have ever met. Women sensed her power and flocked around her. She actually kind of fought another girl for me who I had hooked up with in the bar. So Ann Coulter’s twin is named Lori Settnek and I met her at The Paddock in 2000. Ocean City is a beach which I have been going to since my teens. Lori said she had been waiting for me to come around for two years as if I showed up late.
I cannot express the hurt and sense of loss, I simply cannot. There are things that I cannot explain and do not know. After I finally returned home and was released from prison, which caused me an extreme bitterness, the first thing my sister did was take me to get a passport. That was the very first thing we did. I was not sure how things would turn out and I was just trying to get back on my feet.
In 2005 I bought a condo in Virginia and several cars. I was already retired from the military. In all honesty, if Ann Coulter came around, I would neither recognize her or even talk to her. I was so devastated and hurt by what happened that I vowed I would go find Lori who was just a simple girl who really liked me a lot. I mean a lot and she looks just as or better than Ann Coulter, totally gorgeous.
Along came a girl, who lived in Maryland, for whom I began to date. I was basically trying to move on if I could. I cannot tell you how hurt I was; in all honesty I could break down in a snap of a finger. If someone pushed it or wanted to be cruel, I cannot fight back and would. I am beginning to get the same feelings with you. Someone has been playing cupid with me bombarding me with who I hated and did not like. I got the feeling they kept saying “give us a chance” or “give me a chance.” So in 2005 I met an 18 year old Russian Jewish model.
I am not going to lie, we messed around. She was more trying to tease me and get me excited then pulling back and I felt she wanted a serious relationship. She was just very commanding and it caused a lot of problems. I am a hard drinker and been a hard drinker since age 14. Also I like to smoke a lot, since I have been around 10 or 12 years old. If there is anyone who needs to feel guilty for hurting someone they love, then it will be me. I used to be a stud or good with girls. The only reason why I did not sleep with all of them was because I wanted a serious relationship and a girl to call my own. I have never wanted anything else but a good woman. Had I found her at age 17, then I would be with her and married now. I am a hard partier and my friends have partied even harder than fraternity brothers, it is a misspent youth and a level of juvenile delinquency.
When I and the Russian model went to NYC, we stayed at some hotel in Manhattan and I passed out from drinking. She took a bath and woke me up in the middle of the night, 3am and got naked. Nothing happened it was just a tease and a pitch for a serious relationship. It was erotic and I had not been with anyone for so long. I haven’t had a worthy relationship since high school. So I was very lonely and miserable but nobody could take the pain away and I could not move on. I read several articles on Ann Coulter and Andrew Stein and it seemed almost exactly the same. They said how the two were kissing in SOHO, which was more than what I did. Here is the article:
Ever since they were first caught swapping spit at Soho House, Coulter and Stein's relationship was one for the ages. As in all great love stories, the two came from different worlds: He was a former City Council president and Democrat, she was the author of, If Democrats Had Any Brains, They'd be Republicans. Coulter gave Stein complexity. Stein gave Coulter a soul. Their heady two-and-a-half-month courtship kept us all in thrall. Why couldn't they work it out? "We split because of irreconcilable differences," Stein told the Post. But really — shouldn't he have known that going in? Who doesn't have irreconcilable differences with Ann Coulter?
So I was looking around, call it spying on Ann Coulter and found some things I did not like. It seemed as though someone linked me to her and used me to hurt her and hurt me using her. No need, because I am beyond hurt. I will admit this too you right now and in the most honest way; I am too hurt to hear of Trieste and rumors about the love of my life. It is a very fragile situation and I will walk away very easily no matter how negative the impact is. I am just too hurt call it destroyed. I don’t know what happened to the one I loved. I don’t know if they were able to destroy her also. I am and I wish her happiness in life and I am just hurt. It feels like your girl got raped or is being raped and she don’t want to say anything to you. Everybody has a pressure point.
So I was looking and they say that Ann Coulter moved to Florida the same time when I was released from prison. She then bought a house in Palm Beach, Florida for like 2 million dollars. Then the state of Florida hit her with some voter fraud thing. Then someone was heckling her in her new home in Florida. It is the Jews and they have a lot of money; they are behind it also along with several other liberals. When I met Ann, she lived in a small two story house and was beginning her career. Now she is some big shot and lives with millionaires, people who swap wives, country club folks, etc… Me I’m military and I like finer things in life but I feel detached from Ann now and out of place. I just feel too hurt to admit it. Again, I am in a situation I do not know what to do or say.
If she wants to be mad at me, then she has a right to be for the Russian model. I don’t know I see it as rumors and innuendoes. Then now they are spreading her address all around the internet and blogs. It says Ann Coulter lives at 242 Sea breeze Lane in Palm Beach. Yeah, sure I will make sure to drop by and say hi. I am on the Canadian border, I am ready and prepared to cross the border and disappear. I doubt if Ann Coulter has something to say to me, she will get a chance after I cross into Canada. I do not know what is going on in all honesty.
All I know is someone has literally invaded my life, turned it upside down, threatened who I thought was you, put me in jail, and just took everything I had. Hell, it might be someone you know or someone I know. If you are Ann Coulter and you are trying to stop me and ask me to not say goodbye, you have to understand that there is a time for pride and a time to show your soul. You can give me all the money in the world, I would not care. If someone is trying to destroy Ann Coulter and thinks I am linked to her, then they have. I am destroyed and so hurt. They are on the verge of destroying her or my love life. I admit, there is nothing or any smut on Ann Coulter on the internet which is really weird for a single woman like her. She is hot, smart, and rich; she can have anyone she wants. She lives around the most successful people and its just I feel so out of place. I just want to write this book and cross into Canada or figure out how to “forget.” Maybe she is the reason behind this because she is so hot and around all of these people.
I totally adore Ann and I know life has been so hard for her and I wish her the best of luck. But I am lonely, I am miserable, and I am crushed. If she has linked herself to me then I do not know why she is trying to talk to me or try so hard. I feel like I married her 20 years ago in some secret marriage but she is going to be upset because I wasn’t told of some things or this cupid problem. She will be mad at me or the reverse, I don’t know. I do not see any reason why she would want to find me or talk to me; our lives are so different now. Things are so different and out of place. One day I am mad, one day I am happy, one day I feel loved; she to me is just too secretive. If she is trying to prove something, then its time and do not take it for granted. If she is trying or trying to prove something, I do not know why she waited so long and for things to get so messed up.
I am not saying I do not love her. I am not saying she does not love me. I am saying that when you love someone, you must devote everything to them and stick to that through thick and thin and I do not know if we have done that; I know one of us did not. I do not know if you heard that and I am not good enough of a liar, but I know one of us has not followed some promise we made a long time ago and one which was made in secrecy but forgotten due to lives destroyed, miserable feelings, and a sense of totally loosing oneself. I do not believe in cheating or wife swapping or things not about marriage and family; but this cupid problem and holding me back from what I love has devastated me.
I am a little jealous and I admit it. I feel inadequate and I admit this. If we made a vow then I know I broke it and then buried it then moved on. I am sure she did the same so here we are trying to figure out who is going to cut the other’s throat first. Do you know how that makes you feel to hurt someone you love and adore with all your heart and will give your life for? Terrible, plain god damn fucking terrible like a knife got stabbed in your heart and it will not come out. So I hope this is important enough for “the” Ann Coulter to contact me. Life is dangerous enough as it is and so hurtful. Right now life is getting more and very dangerous. I am sure she has been through hell also. Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, why is it hurting so badly now?
Did we both break the secret pact and if so why are we sitting here and playing each other again? So I will keep this professional and as it is SS and See; don’t change anything okay. If I can just use you to block the sun for a little then allow me, then I will be gone okay. The secret pact, we can say goodbye and how we both mutually broke it because of the circumstances of others who successfully destroyed us or tore us apart. I am ripped apart and you know this and you are not even here if you are Ann. I will make sure to jot down on my planner to drop by 242 Sea Breeze Lane okay that sounds like an idea. I have nothing but love and love Ann to my death; but I want to know what happened to our secret pact and why things turned out so messed up. Was it me or her?
Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, I am so hurt by this and it is like someone killed my wife or spouse again. I went through this once already. Was I supposed to come by and see you in Maryland or just knock on your door in Palm Beach? That is insane but I will say this, I would marry Ann Coulter and spend the rest of my life with her if we can sit down and talk to her. She has flagged me down perhaps and in the last quarter of the game when everything counts but nothing matters. Nothing matters anymore; have I lost the very last thing I love and totally cherish? I don’t hate Ann; I totally love her with all my heart, why do I feel like this? If this is Ann, how do we stay together after hell and make this back to good?
If you want to answer: like me… they are all losers or someone you do not even want and I cannot even say anything.
1. Guccione: 1 date or some beau relationship
2. Stein: what in the world and why is this so messed up, are you doing it to me or am I doing this to you? How do I stop it, tell me please.
3. I love Ann and only Ann. I will accept her twin but now I am told I was set up again by cupid. I feel so cheap and why am I not with the girl who I love more than my life and am a perfect match, which is really scary! I am a lost heart and a romantic. As hurt as I am I will rip my heart out and give it to anyone.
Hi. I tried to tell you how hurt and how confused my life has been since oh… 1998. I cannot really speak of very many good things since then. Moreover, from 2001 to 2004 I spent life incarcerated and empty. The only time when I had a brief moment of happiness and sense of peace was in 2000 and meeting the twin of Ann Coulter at Ocean City, MD. She was the prettiest and most pure woman I have ever met. Women sensed her power and flocked around her. She actually kind of fought another girl for me who I had hooked up with in the bar. So Ann Coulter’s twin is named Lori Settnek and I met her at The Paddock in 2000. Ocean City is a beach which I have been going to since my teens. Lori said she had been waiting for me to come around for two years as if I showed up late.
I cannot express the hurt and sense of loss, I simply cannot. There are things that I cannot explain and do not know. After I finally returned home and was released from prison, which caused me an extreme bitterness, the first thing my sister did was take me to get a passport. That was the very first thing we did. I was not sure how things would turn out and I was just trying to get back on my feet.
In 2005 I bought a condo in Virginia and several cars. I was already retired from the military. In all honesty, if Ann Coulter came around, I would neither recognize her or even talk to her. I was so devastated and hurt by what happened that I vowed I would go find Lori who was just a simple girl who really liked me a lot. I mean a lot and she looks just as or better than Ann Coulter, totally gorgeous.
Along came a girl, who lived in Maryland, for whom I began to date. I was basically trying to move on if I could. I cannot tell you how hurt I was; in all honesty I could break down in a snap of a finger. If someone pushed it or wanted to be cruel, I cannot fight back and would. I am beginning to get the same feelings with you. Someone has been playing cupid with me bombarding me with who I hated and did not like. I got the feeling they kept saying “give us a chance” or “give me a chance.” So in 2005 I met an 18 year old Russian Jewish model.
I am not going to lie, we messed around. She was more trying to tease me and get me excited then pulling back and I felt she wanted a serious relationship. She was just very commanding and it caused a lot of problems. I am a hard drinker and been a hard drinker since age 14. Also I like to smoke a lot, since I have been around 10 or 12 years old. If there is anyone who needs to feel guilty for hurting someone they love, then it will be me. I used to be a stud or good with girls. The only reason why I did not sleep with all of them was because I wanted a serious relationship and a girl to call my own. I have never wanted anything else but a good woman. Had I found her at age 17, then I would be with her and married now. I am a hard partier and my friends have partied even harder than fraternity brothers, it is a misspent youth and a level of juvenile delinquency.
When I and the Russian model went to NYC, we stayed at some hotel in Manhattan and I passed out from drinking. She took a bath and woke me up in the middle of the night, 3am and got naked. Nothing happened it was just a tease and a pitch for a serious relationship. It was erotic and I had not been with anyone for so long. I haven’t had a worthy relationship since high school. So I was very lonely and miserable but nobody could take the pain away and I could not move on. I read several articles on Ann Coulter and Andrew Stein and it seemed almost exactly the same. They said how the two were kissing in SOHO, which was more than what I did. Here is the article:
Ever since they were first caught swapping spit at Soho House, Coulter and Stein's relationship was one for the ages. As in all great love stories, the two came from different worlds: He was a former City Council president and Democrat, she was the author of, If Democrats Had Any Brains, They'd be Republicans. Coulter gave Stein complexity. Stein gave Coulter a soul. Their heady two-and-a-half-month courtship kept us all in thrall. Why couldn't they work it out? "We split because of irreconcilable differences," Stein told the Post. But really — shouldn't he have known that going in? Who doesn't have irreconcilable differences with Ann Coulter?
So I was looking around, call it spying on Ann Coulter and found some things I did not like. It seemed as though someone linked me to her and used me to hurt her and hurt me using her. No need, because I am beyond hurt. I will admit this too you right now and in the most honest way; I am too hurt to hear of Trieste and rumors about the love of my life. It is a very fragile situation and I will walk away very easily no matter how negative the impact is. I am just too hurt call it destroyed. I don’t know what happened to the one I loved. I don’t know if they were able to destroy her also. I am and I wish her happiness in life and I am just hurt. It feels like your girl got raped or is being raped and she don’t want to say anything to you. Everybody has a pressure point.
So I was looking and they say that Ann Coulter moved to Florida the same time when I was released from prison. She then bought a house in Palm Beach, Florida for like 2 million dollars. Then the state of Florida hit her with some voter fraud thing. Then someone was heckling her in her new home in Florida. It is the Jews and they have a lot of money; they are behind it also along with several other liberals. When I met Ann, she lived in a small two story house and was beginning her career. Now she is some big shot and lives with millionaires, people who swap wives, country club folks, etc… Me I’m military and I like finer things in life but I feel detached from Ann now and out of place. I just feel too hurt to admit it. Again, I am in a situation I do not know what to do or say.
If she wants to be mad at me, then she has a right to be for the Russian model. I don’t know I see it as rumors and innuendoes. Then now they are spreading her address all around the internet and blogs. It says Ann Coulter lives at 242 Sea breeze Lane in Palm Beach. Yeah, sure I will make sure to drop by and say hi. I am on the Canadian border, I am ready and prepared to cross the border and disappear. I doubt if Ann Coulter has something to say to me, she will get a chance after I cross into Canada. I do not know what is going on in all honesty.
All I know is someone has literally invaded my life, turned it upside down, threatened who I thought was you, put me in jail, and just took everything I had. Hell, it might be someone you know or someone I know. If you are Ann Coulter and you are trying to stop me and ask me to not say goodbye, you have to understand that there is a time for pride and a time to show your soul. You can give me all the money in the world, I would not care. If someone is trying to destroy Ann Coulter and thinks I am linked to her, then they have. I am destroyed and so hurt. They are on the verge of destroying her or my love life. I admit, there is nothing or any smut on Ann Coulter on the internet which is really weird for a single woman like her. She is hot, smart, and rich; she can have anyone she wants. She lives around the most successful people and its just I feel so out of place. I just want to write this book and cross into Canada or figure out how to “forget.” Maybe she is the reason behind this because she is so hot and around all of these people.
I totally adore Ann and I know life has been so hard for her and I wish her the best of luck. But I am lonely, I am miserable, and I am crushed. If she has linked herself to me then I do not know why she is trying to talk to me or try so hard. I feel like I married her 20 years ago in some secret marriage but she is going to be upset because I wasn’t told of some things or this cupid problem. She will be mad at me or the reverse, I don’t know. I do not see any reason why she would want to find me or talk to me; our lives are so different now. Things are so different and out of place. One day I am mad, one day I am happy, one day I feel loved; she to me is just too secretive. If she is trying to prove something, then its time and do not take it for granted. If she is trying or trying to prove something, I do not know why she waited so long and for things to get so messed up.
I am not saying I do not love her. I am not saying she does not love me. I am saying that when you love someone, you must devote everything to them and stick to that through thick and thin and I do not know if we have done that; I know one of us did not. I do not know if you heard that and I am not good enough of a liar, but I know one of us has not followed some promise we made a long time ago and one which was made in secrecy but forgotten due to lives destroyed, miserable feelings, and a sense of totally loosing oneself. I do not believe in cheating or wife swapping or things not about marriage and family; but this cupid problem and holding me back from what I love has devastated me.
I am a little jealous and I admit it. I feel inadequate and I admit this. If we made a vow then I know I broke it and then buried it then moved on. I am sure she did the same so here we are trying to figure out who is going to cut the other’s throat first. Do you know how that makes you feel to hurt someone you love and adore with all your heart and will give your life for? Terrible, plain god damn fucking terrible like a knife got stabbed in your heart and it will not come out. So I hope this is important enough for “the” Ann Coulter to contact me. Life is dangerous enough as it is and so hurtful. Right now life is getting more and very dangerous. I am sure she has been through hell also. Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, why is it hurting so badly now?
Did we both break the secret pact and if so why are we sitting here and playing each other again? So I will keep this professional and as it is SS and See; don’t change anything okay. If I can just use you to block the sun for a little then allow me, then I will be gone okay. The secret pact, we can say goodbye and how we both mutually broke it because of the circumstances of others who successfully destroyed us or tore us apart. I am ripped apart and you know this and you are not even here if you are Ann. I will make sure to jot down on my planner to drop by 242 Sea Breeze Lane okay that sounds like an idea. I have nothing but love and love Ann to my death; but I want to know what happened to our secret pact and why things turned out so messed up. Was it me or her?
Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, I am so hurt by this and it is like someone killed my wife or spouse again. I went through this once already. Was I supposed to come by and see you in Maryland or just knock on your door in Palm Beach? That is insane but I will say this, I would marry Ann Coulter and spend the rest of my life with her if we can sit down and talk to her. She has flagged me down perhaps and in the last quarter of the game when everything counts but nothing matters. Nothing matters anymore; have I lost the very last thing I love and totally cherish? I don’t hate Ann; I totally love her with all my heart, why do I feel like this? If this is Ann, how do we stay together after hell and make this back to good?
If you want to answer: like me… they are all losers or someone you do not even want and I cannot even say anything.
1. Guccione: 1 date or some beau relationship
2. Stein: what in the world and why is this so messed up, are you doing it to me or am I doing this to you? How do I stop it, tell me please.
3. I love Ann and only Ann. I will accept her twin but now I am told I was set up again by cupid. I feel so cheap and why am I not with the girl who I love more than my life and am a perfect match, which is really scary! I am a lost heart and a romantic. As hurt as I am I will rip my heart out and give it to anyone.
JUNE 6, 2008
Dear SS & See;
I want to know what you are doing after the show; ha, I think I know already. It is a funny but inspiring idea how you showed up at just the right place and the right time to witness something people have never seen before or know how to. Come here, no closer, wait closer… “I think you are the most awesome woman walking this earth and if you were Anne Coulter, then you know I love you more than my own life and will never ever leave your side.” Now if I could just kidnap her and ask her to say the same! She is definitely everything and I do not even know how she can go into public. One day it’s a stalker or heckler, the next it’s a pandering future husband.
So I wish she would freeze her eggs so that I can track it down one day and buy into that conservative genius and beauty queen looks of her. By then, I should be rich and with a stable family so it would be so lovely to hold onto the idea that my daughter looks, acts, and thinks like the one and only Anne freaking Coulter. Ha, I wonder what my fugitive and future wife will say to that idea.
Now if I could find a woman who looks like her and think like her, I’d be set. I could be like Tanto and the Lone Ranger or Tattoo and Mr. Roark on Fantasy Island. It such a shame I was not able to meet her a long time ago and I wonder how she would react to my constant “I want to have fun” attitude. Wait, I forgot to mention I am a great cook and I love to cook also! I was locally ranked in my home economics class (ha).
Okay so here is the thing, I know I am not as strong as she is. But then, she knows she is not as weak as I am. That leaves this big giant gap between whether or not I am tough enough for her love or am I tough enough for her love. You know, not many guys wonder what it is like to be married to the “Anne Coulter.” It’s an interesting thought but one which sounds totally awesome. Even if I never get the chance to meet her or pass acquaintance, I would not mind having her children. Ha, what would a father do with little Anne Coulters running around like robots! See, you in the next lifetime because I cannot take the suspense!
So after reading your stuff and learning little tidbits about you which “shhhhh” me up real quick; I figured out I had lost myself. I was chasing a ghost that I will never find. I am chasing a ghost until I bleed or lost myself deep in this ghost. You see, you put these standards on women which Anne Coulter has then you look around and it’s like, “so where the hell are they?” She is a one in a million ghost and I have only found one person on this earth as pretty (or similar in looks). It’s too bad I married her and had to look hard to find her!
I guess what I am saying when it comes to love is you can loose yourself in someone else. When you do, that loss is so great, you can never overcome it; or if you do, it can make the present better. However, there is another place; another sense of love and space beyond this present. Maybe that is why they call it loving someone forever, how can you love someone so much you can never love again? That is like what I said, love can make you bleed and bleed badly.
When we met, I said you were not tough enough and now you are tougher than I am, so how can I possibly forget? Ha, even a guy as macho as I am has a deep sense of love and respect, imagine that. Who would think that I would meet the “Anne Coulter” one day and tell her “now wipe away those tears and give me a hug.” I wonder if I am tougher than her. The song goes like this “As long as you’ll be my friend at the end.”
So how long have I been walking with my people and where the hell they been? Heck, it is really tough to find such an idea because LIBERALS are EVERYWHERE and driving me CRAZY. And you know what, when it gets all insane and crazy, I take advantage of the fact that you may be, I may already be with you, or how we were all along. Is that not crazy and not a crazy thought from a military man? Well, I am not talking about you specifically, but I know if and when I meet Anne and she takes me home with her, I will be with her till the end of time. Watch, bank on it okay, I’m dead serious. There is not one woman walking this earth who can resist my irresistible charm and good looks! (Oh my god, that was actually a joke)
Ha, say you’re sorry because you are crushing me now! Not crushing me as in rolled over and crushed me, just crushing me, yeah! Well, at least you get to stand beside me in pain while you can watch me bleed on stage right! Gee, thanks a lot. Hmm, are you going to bleed for me or with me? That is another interesting thought. Dammit, I really hate this idea how everyone is saying Anne Coulter was with them or with me! I’d rather it is me then them right?
Wait; there was something very wrong with that statement because you are not as strong before chasing a ghost then after you chase a ghost that is deep inside you. Who is that ghost Anne Coulter is chasing? She says she is chasing Mr. Wright but who is that ghost deep inside her? Oh, time out here, why is he not with her if she is “the” Anne Coulter! Ha, I am going to pay for that one by some greasy grinning way.
Well, all I am doing now is waiting because I lost myself. I hope I have not lost other things in my life, which I know were lost, they are all gone. So I wait and wait for a ghost deep inside of me. Flashes of tears shooting in the night and more flashes of tears conspiring to tear us down. So I heard the tears calling to me… and you want to know what they said? Nope, you are not allowed! (Big brining grin) Okay, since you are a dear friend, I will tell you okay sexy, smart, and so mucho denieros.
Those voices said how clear it was at the bottom. How can we get clean again when we can’t even keep our love alive? We cannot get back again, never. It’s lost and it is gone, maybe deep inside someone else. Sorry, I am trying to keep it together also but someone always comes along and makes me loose it. We cannot get back again nor anymore, does that bring a smile to anyone else?
So now the secret is out sexy and smart, I hope you take the best of me deep inside of you because we cannot go back and everything is out of whack. I wonder if “the” Anne Coulter ever asks if she should try to “keep it together” the best I can by momentary lapses of why we can’t get back again. Okay, since my thought is this far, one last one okay. Let’s say I was in danger or something, I will sleep well knowing I’m going down and you were no longer around, now is that tough enough for your love or the love of “the” Anne Coulter?
Think about it and lets…
Cyber
(Three Doors Down, Kryptonite)
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite
I want to know what you are doing after the show; ha, I think I know already. It is a funny but inspiring idea how you showed up at just the right place and the right time to witness something people have never seen before or know how to. Come here, no closer, wait closer… “I think you are the most awesome woman walking this earth and if you were Anne Coulter, then you know I love you more than my own life and will never ever leave your side.” Now if I could just kidnap her and ask her to say the same! She is definitely everything and I do not even know how she can go into public. One day it’s a stalker or heckler, the next it’s a pandering future husband.
So I wish she would freeze her eggs so that I can track it down one day and buy into that conservative genius and beauty queen looks of her. By then, I should be rich and with a stable family so it would be so lovely to hold onto the idea that my daughter looks, acts, and thinks like the one and only Anne freaking Coulter. Ha, I wonder what my fugitive and future wife will say to that idea.
Now if I could find a woman who looks like her and think like her, I’d be set. I could be like Tanto and the Lone Ranger or Tattoo and Mr. Roark on Fantasy Island. It such a shame I was not able to meet her a long time ago and I wonder how she would react to my constant “I want to have fun” attitude. Wait, I forgot to mention I am a great cook and I love to cook also! I was locally ranked in my home economics class (ha).
Okay so here is the thing, I know I am not as strong as she is. But then, she knows she is not as weak as I am. That leaves this big giant gap between whether or not I am tough enough for her love or am I tough enough for her love. You know, not many guys wonder what it is like to be married to the “Anne Coulter.” It’s an interesting thought but one which sounds totally awesome. Even if I never get the chance to meet her or pass acquaintance, I would not mind having her children. Ha, what would a father do with little Anne Coulters running around like robots! See, you in the next lifetime because I cannot take the suspense!
So after reading your stuff and learning little tidbits about you which “shhhhh” me up real quick; I figured out I had lost myself. I was chasing a ghost that I will never find. I am chasing a ghost until I bleed or lost myself deep in this ghost. You see, you put these standards on women which Anne Coulter has then you look around and it’s like, “so where the hell are they?” She is a one in a million ghost and I have only found one person on this earth as pretty (or similar in looks). It’s too bad I married her and had to look hard to find her!
I guess what I am saying when it comes to love is you can loose yourself in someone else. When you do, that loss is so great, you can never overcome it; or if you do, it can make the present better. However, there is another place; another sense of love and space beyond this present. Maybe that is why they call it loving someone forever, how can you love someone so much you can never love again? That is like what I said, love can make you bleed and bleed badly.
When we met, I said you were not tough enough and now you are tougher than I am, so how can I possibly forget? Ha, even a guy as macho as I am has a deep sense of love and respect, imagine that. Who would think that I would meet the “Anne Coulter” one day and tell her “now wipe away those tears and give me a hug.” I wonder if I am tougher than her. The song goes like this “As long as you’ll be my friend at the end.”
So how long have I been walking with my people and where the hell they been? Heck, it is really tough to find such an idea because LIBERALS are EVERYWHERE and driving me CRAZY. And you know what, when it gets all insane and crazy, I take advantage of the fact that you may be, I may already be with you, or how we were all along. Is that not crazy and not a crazy thought from a military man? Well, I am not talking about you specifically, but I know if and when I meet Anne and she takes me home with her, I will be with her till the end of time. Watch, bank on it okay, I’m dead serious. There is not one woman walking this earth who can resist my irresistible charm and good looks! (Oh my god, that was actually a joke)
Ha, say you’re sorry because you are crushing me now! Not crushing me as in rolled over and crushed me, just crushing me, yeah! Well, at least you get to stand beside me in pain while you can watch me bleed on stage right! Gee, thanks a lot. Hmm, are you going to bleed for me or with me? That is another interesting thought. Dammit, I really hate this idea how everyone is saying Anne Coulter was with them or with me! I’d rather it is me then them right?
Wait; there was something very wrong with that statement because you are not as strong before chasing a ghost then after you chase a ghost that is deep inside you. Who is that ghost Anne Coulter is chasing? She says she is chasing Mr. Wright but who is that ghost deep inside her? Oh, time out here, why is he not with her if she is “the” Anne Coulter! Ha, I am going to pay for that one by some greasy grinning way.
Well, all I am doing now is waiting because I lost myself. I hope I have not lost other things in my life, which I know were lost, they are all gone. So I wait and wait for a ghost deep inside of me. Flashes of tears shooting in the night and more flashes of tears conspiring to tear us down. So I heard the tears calling to me… and you want to know what they said? Nope, you are not allowed! (Big brining grin) Okay, since you are a dear friend, I will tell you okay sexy, smart, and so mucho denieros.
Those voices said how clear it was at the bottom. How can we get clean again when we can’t even keep our love alive? We cannot get back again, never. It’s lost and it is gone, maybe deep inside someone else. Sorry, I am trying to keep it together also but someone always comes along and makes me loose it. We cannot get back again nor anymore, does that bring a smile to anyone else?
So now the secret is out sexy and smart, I hope you take the best of me deep inside of you because we cannot go back and everything is out of whack. I wonder if “the” Anne Coulter ever asks if she should try to “keep it together” the best I can by momentary lapses of why we can’t get back again. Okay, since my thought is this far, one last one okay. Let’s say I was in danger or something, I will sleep well knowing I’m going down and you were no longer around, now is that tough enough for your love or the love of “the” Anne Coulter?
Think about it and lets…
Cyber
(Three Doors Down, Kryptonite)
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite
June 5, 2008
Dear SS and C "aka ": XXX;
In my search for answers I life, I have sometimes ran into an impasse of grave questioning to understand both the motives and the responsibilities of others as they pertain to my own. I offer you a list of my grave questioning.
Inside me, deep is a cold hard hurt. It is a place where the sun does not shine. It is an area where secrets are kept and missions are processed. It is in this deep abyss where I am riddled with sores and the neutrinos fired at me which do not seem to pass through. Hence, I absorb them and try to hold my head high while I slide sideways and a little at a time.
I have never asked anything special from you. I have never come out and said, “I just would wish that girl would speak for me for once.” I do not owe that girl anything and she does not owe me. It saddens me while I sit here at my desk and remember distance images I have of someone. Someone I have yet to know but know too well.
In the dark of this riddled area of disaster, my life has an inescapable miserable truth. It becomes hell of me to think a death could come by riot by persons, unbeknownst to us all, which hath not loved but need no love back. In this darkness there is a reflection. It too is just as pained by the grief why it is such a dark place and a deep and deeper yearning to shed light onto a rot that grows.
I am pained to look at you. I am pained to think the human spite delivered to me would also be the reception delivered to such a beautiful individual. There are not many souls living in the darkness which must hold onto the only thread in life which will keep them alive. In this war where every man is against each other, how can it be that my silence is equaled by another? Last to discover, I am pained.
I am pained to witness this despised hurt that which rot in my growth and makes my affections more cursed by love which I reflected but never asked back. Who hath not loved is loved back. I am not able to hide this as well. I am not able to stand before a crowd and least it be known, not be affected.
This dark spot is indeed a hurtful and painful area. It is a gladiator stage for the strongest of this world. What happens in that stage is the deep sadness which I am not able to communicate with you but can only give back? I do not have anything to give to the most beautiful woman in the world and a girl which has proven herself the most unwanted one in a million stars lit nights for all to see but guess.
I wait for a shot of adulterous affairs or some painless knowledge of a girl who was raped beyond her consciousness and knowledge of what occurred. Perhaps her boyfriend and future compatriot had watched and tried to stop; perhaps he was so pained that he vowed not to return. Sometimes when inside you are so pure and so comforted, the best answer is not the answer. Thus I wait for the deliverance of bad news and another cut in a slow but wilting darkness of grief inspired by the most incredible person I have yet to walk this earth and known.
I cannot separate the thought of how intelligent you are and my equal or greater for I am more a fighter by no words than to use my mental skills to outwit an opponent. However, in fights of the heart there is never a winner, only losers. In this regard, I am a loser. In this regard, I remain in this darkness and alone, against a wind which I neither know or enjoy but I know it must be done and I know I must not stop even if the rot inside tells me to. If it is any comfort, then I ask you to get behind me and let the wind carry me away to that darkness I know already.
The sun shine upon you and as a fighter and one of no words, I accept this with no complaints. It is my wish for you to know us more closely and how I had reached out to you in a deep sleep. One which felt like a dream and one which I was not able to wake from; it pained me to know this and it made me feel much better to tell my partner. I accept many things in life and have not one fear. I can only imagine the pain and grief you must endure to watch also. It is a feeling of a growing rot and a hurt in a darkness which keeps you silenced and quiet.
I am unable to say have mercy on me for I accept my uncanny predicament. I choose to share with you my mystery of a better day and know what to expect. I am riddled by thoughts of being ravaged and eaten naked by someone I do know and who is seeking and plotting my ruin. Death comes to riot and easily. I hope that you will grow stronger and healthier. I hope that you envision that which I showed you to be the strength inside. The ability to float with the wind and to sense when it blows to respect it and not fear it; the cruelties I do not fear, it is the love which I fear the most.
You my dear are the most perfect creature of this earth. The smartest woman I have ever witnessed with my deceitful and calculating logical madness. The most beautiful by any standards I have seen for any woman of my age. I have never upon my wildest dream, think I would be waking from a hell of fire and ice with such unspoken quiet and beauty as what I see before me. I wish to share this with you because you seem to be the only partner that has ever been there. You will have to save that story for a long night and a taste of what you will feel.
Tell Anne Coulter to stop sugar coating the liberals, they are not really that good. That is they think they are so much better or they think others are so much worse than them. It is despicable to witness and be lost of words but I do not blame her because I figure there is so much you can get away with before the line is crossed. Anne Coulter is accepted by the liberals only because she is light on them and withholds the idea that they should be buried deep in the veil of evil they fear themselves. They are too easy on her as she is too easy on them.
In my search for answers I life, I have sometimes ran into an impasse of grave questioning to understand both the motives and the responsibilities of others as they pertain to my own. I offer you a list of my grave questioning.
Inside me, deep is a cold hard hurt. It is a place where the sun does not shine. It is an area where secrets are kept and missions are processed. It is in this deep abyss where I am riddled with sores and the neutrinos fired at me which do not seem to pass through. Hence, I absorb them and try to hold my head high while I slide sideways and a little at a time.
I have never asked anything special from you. I have never come out and said, “I just would wish that girl would speak for me for once.” I do not owe that girl anything and she does not owe me. It saddens me while I sit here at my desk and remember distance images I have of someone. Someone I have yet to know but know too well.
In the dark of this riddled area of disaster, my life has an inescapable miserable truth. It becomes hell of me to think a death could come by riot by persons, unbeknownst to us all, which hath not loved but need no love back. In this darkness there is a reflection. It too is just as pained by the grief why it is such a dark place and a deep and deeper yearning to shed light onto a rot that grows.
I am pained to look at you. I am pained to think the human spite delivered to me would also be the reception delivered to such a beautiful individual. There are not many souls living in the darkness which must hold onto the only thread in life which will keep them alive. In this war where every man is against each other, how can it be that my silence is equaled by another? Last to discover, I am pained.
I am pained to witness this despised hurt that which rot in my growth and makes my affections more cursed by love which I reflected but never asked back. Who hath not loved is loved back. I am not able to hide this as well. I am not able to stand before a crowd and least it be known, not be affected.
This dark spot is indeed a hurtful and painful area. It is a gladiator stage for the strongest of this world. What happens in that stage is the deep sadness which I am not able to communicate with you but can only give back? I do not have anything to give to the most beautiful woman in the world and a girl which has proven herself the most unwanted one in a million stars lit nights for all to see but guess.
I wait for a shot of adulterous affairs or some painless knowledge of a girl who was raped beyond her consciousness and knowledge of what occurred. Perhaps her boyfriend and future compatriot had watched and tried to stop; perhaps he was so pained that he vowed not to return. Sometimes when inside you are so pure and so comforted, the best answer is not the answer. Thus I wait for the deliverance of bad news and another cut in a slow but wilting darkness of grief inspired by the most incredible person I have yet to walk this earth and known.
I cannot separate the thought of how intelligent you are and my equal or greater for I am more a fighter by no words than to use my mental skills to outwit an opponent. However, in fights of the heart there is never a winner, only losers. In this regard, I am a loser. In this regard, I remain in this darkness and alone, against a wind which I neither know or enjoy but I know it must be done and I know I must not stop even if the rot inside tells me to. If it is any comfort, then I ask you to get behind me and let the wind carry me away to that darkness I know already.
The sun shine upon you and as a fighter and one of no words, I accept this with no complaints. It is my wish for you to know us more closely and how I had reached out to you in a deep sleep. One which felt like a dream and one which I was not able to wake from; it pained me to know this and it made me feel much better to tell my partner. I accept many things in life and have not one fear. I can only imagine the pain and grief you must endure to watch also. It is a feeling of a growing rot and a hurt in a darkness which keeps you silenced and quiet.
I am unable to say have mercy on me for I accept my uncanny predicament. I choose to share with you my mystery of a better day and know what to expect. I am riddled by thoughts of being ravaged and eaten naked by someone I do know and who is seeking and plotting my ruin. Death comes to riot and easily. I hope that you will grow stronger and healthier. I hope that you envision that which I showed you to be the strength inside. The ability to float with the wind and to sense when it blows to respect it and not fear it; the cruelties I do not fear, it is the love which I fear the most.
You my dear are the most perfect creature of this earth. The smartest woman I have ever witnessed with my deceitful and calculating logical madness. The most beautiful by any standards I have seen for any woman of my age. I have never upon my wildest dream, think I would be waking from a hell of fire and ice with such unspoken quiet and beauty as what I see before me. I wish to share this with you because you seem to be the only partner that has ever been there. You will have to save that story for a long night and a taste of what you will feel.
Tell Anne Coulter to stop sugar coating the liberals, they are not really that good. That is they think they are so much better or they think others are so much worse than them. It is despicable to witness and be lost of words but I do not blame her because I figure there is so much you can get away with before the line is crossed. Anne Coulter is accepted by the liberals only because she is light on them and withholds the idea that they should be buried deep in the veil of evil they fear themselves. They are too easy on her as she is too easy on them.
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