TOWN HALL: OUR LIBERTIES OR HEALTH CARE; LET’S ASK THE SUPREME COURT? SUPREME COURT MEDICAL DISTRIBUTION; CLINTON AND HER; AUG 16, 2009

SUNDAY SHOWS:
There is no way to avoid the Supreme Court in this medical bill unless there is a disclaimer or some means to usurp due process. President Obama has yet to address any of these decisions and the details of a rule of law if cost cutting is the goal. The Congressional Budget Office (GAO-CBO) says that this will triple the cost and add overwhelming burdens on a strained system already. Now, you do you manage this problem when the Supreme Court is not in favor of States rights to the death penalty and we keep having this debate about death?

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THE LEADERSHIP OF THE LEFT WING AND DEMOCRATIC PARTY WISH TO SPEAK TO THE 911 TERRORISTS, RING LEADERS, AND LEGAL TEAM; JULY 23, 2009

The liberals and the Democratic Party have a word with Rush, Sean, and Barrack who they have better odds with: http://getthehelloutofmy.blogspot.com/

Listen as Bin Limbaugh-Hannity argues the UCMJ and their legal defense! They can plead guilty on a military tribunal and innocent on a civil and criminal one: http://cybwarsatwarhq.blogspot.com/

THERE IS A LOT PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW ABOUT YOU AND THINGS THEY WILL NEVER KNOW ABOUT YOU...

8/21/2008 3:15:59 AM

Ann Coulter is not only the best friend in the world, she is probably the best spouse in the world and I have said this many times in the past only to be struck down on some salty wrasse contrivance of a… to ruin someone. Ann is an angel and the best friend or spouse you will ever find. She will never leave your side and even if you hate her, you have to at least give her a chance and understand why. Her world is based on people she holds very dear to her and if they are so viciously threatened, she will put her body in the way and she will take the punches day in and day out. How do I know? That is a secret which is going to the grave but I do… ask her, I do.

I am the guilty one Ann and the “bad boy” type. Sometimes we can be so confused and blinded; we cannot even recognize those closest to us and how much we value them. I have no business judging you and even if I did; you still come out unscathed and like always an angel in disguise. I am not only glad but I am also proud of you and the last 20 years of our life. Maybe I will get the chance to show this or prove it finally?

I AM TRYN TO PROTECT YOU AND I AM MAD ALSO... WE WERE WRONGED N I LOVE U BADLY... I AM TRYING MY HARDEST ALSO BUT THE LIES R EVERYWHERE N HARD TO

8/11/2008 1:55:41 PM

Ann,

Sweetheart, if you are out there and are reading this, then understand how I give you 200% and leave it to you to decide. If you feel our twenty years has gone bad, then we will not have twenty more. I want twenty more so badly. It is hard to tell what is going on, it is really. Even your stalkers do not know what is going on.

I am sorry if I mistreated you. Everything is lies. You are going to them and doing what they did to me which you and I know was not a pleasant experience for both of us. I am not mad at you and I love you. I know you are hurting them and making them look stupid for coming to us and messing up our love life. Abducting me and isolating both of us.

You do not know how hurt I know we missed our chance to marry and have a baby. It is so hard, so hard to accept. I know and I see what they did. I know how you went after them and exposed them and how whacked they are to think you were interested in them and was seeking their attention.

For some reason, they did this to me. They came into my life and felt they had a special place and a bond. You are the only person in my life and the only one who has been my life partner. Stop for one second and ask why we are almost in a fist fight with each other. Is it your fault, my fault, your stalkers fault, or your friends who are asking you to choose “us or them?” That is not a good situation and it will be a big fight.

We need to do things together and you tell me how jealous you get also. I understand okay, really I do. I know you feel helpless and there is nothing you and I can do to make the other person not hurt you. I would not do that purposely and you made it clear you do not or would not. I misunderstood and it is so hard to see through all the lies. It is a secret war and secrets.

Your enemies are playing disinformation. They are spreading rumors, innuendoes, and taking a shot at your credibility. I know you are and have been faithful. I love with all my heart. I want twenty more years so badly but I am being affected negatively. I do not know why, but we are turning on each other due to fear and uncertainty.

I believe everything you say and how no man has ever gotten a kiss or one love letter. My heart is with you and will always be. I believe and understand that what you did was exactly what they did to me. They came to me and they messed up everything. They caused so much pain and grief in our life and you had to go to them to say stop and get out of our life.

It is hard okay and I know I made mistakes. All I wanted was an explanation and I know it got them so disturbed and messed up. You did a good job and I love you for protecting me and our life. This is our life. I will try hard to cut through the lies and not to be so mad and affected. It is hard when it is all lies and you enjoy living in a lie or a lie. I want you in my life and if you did not want to be in mine, then you would not show up. Read my profile, I said I was waiting for a friend and a special person to show up for my bio.

Understand me Ann, we have 20 years together. We will have 20 more if we can survive this. Neither of us has been unfaithful. Our life was stolen and hijacked. I am writing about it. You have gotten even and done them in also. They hurt. They are stalking you because they are hurt. I see it and I see their play. I am coming to get you and to rescue you. Hold tight okay, I will get you out of it. But you must believe me and listen to me. I have always promised you and always fulfill my promise.

I know you are mad and I sometimes must hold you and keep you from swinging at them. You know I am a martial arts expert, I can really fight. I will take people on the ground and either break things or apply the most dangerous holds. There is nothing a human being will or can do if I really get mean. I hold this because I am so disciplined. I avoid it because it is so dangerous. I know you are mad at them and I am trying hard to hold you back and back. Just for now okay babe. I promise you your pain or hurt will be your power, trust me and believe in me. I believe you and in you. I believe you, everything.

I have 100 per cent confidence in you. You read my stuff and I saw how you were so angry or remembered how it felt. Please, do not think I am your enemy and mad at you. Please I am trying so badly to salvage and keep our dream alive. Please understand I am being affected and kept from you.

I have 30 deactivated accounts on politico.com to prove this. You were playing a lie with them as they were playing all lies with you. They are stalking you and me and now, we cannot be happy or talk to each other. You read my stuff and you are angry. So you are going after them for insulting you so badly. You want to exchange insults.

I want you to play the absolute number game and add 1 to each. That way I can follow your steps okay, I was not able to and was monitoring it. They were able to steal your wind and I saw this. Do not make that mistake okay. You are better than that. Even if you are so mad, it is okay; I do not want to leave and want another twenty years with you so badly. It is okay.

Do not worry about being hurt or what they think. We have been fighting with each other and agitated. I am so sorry. I have been sorry but I cannot do anything. I cannot change things. I know what happened and all I could say is how sorry I was even if it was not my fault or yours. Don’t get so mad where we are fighting. I am the real fighter and I will bloody your nose. I am a really good fighter okay, serious.

So just understand, how I love you, how difficult it is to decipher all the info, how the lies are on top of other lies, how so many people are involved in a tangled mess, and how the only person on your mind is me? I know this. I believe you and know. They blocked it and messed it up. Now they are moving in to mess it up more. You are making mistakes also and I can see this because you only want to hurt them back.

They have done everything so we do not talk or able to resolve this. They call me and tell me how they “want you back.” I have asked them to fork up 200 years of political future or get the hell out. I will come after and go after them. They have declared a war on me and you by being so intrusive in our life and telling us we cannot talk or communicate. Then they tried to wreck our 20 plus years together. I see that as war. I want 20 more with you so badly, please understand.

Smack them and hard. Make them scared and know. Don’t mess with me unless you truly want to. You did it and then said you did not want to. Yes it is all lies and no they will not let you decide for yourself okay.

Yes I was fighting you and it hurt. I am sorry but there are so many lies and so much disinformation. I cannot even tell who to trust and who is lying. We were fighting together and hitting them so hard. They saw it and got rid of me and said “we want to fight with her.” You and I were like 20 year partners. We came online the same time, we said the same things, we fought the same fight, and we hugged and laughed harder than any of them.

I saw that and you saw that. They saw that. How do you think that makes them feel? Then you said I was stalking you. No, you and I have 20 years and 20 more to come! That is not stalking, that is trying to stay together. We are clockwork and they saw that and sweated heavily. Now we cannot fight together nor do our thing.

Why can’t you and I do our thing? Who is saying we are not allowed to do our thing? Why are they in our lives? They got rid of me and you stop talking to them. They still do not get the message though which tells you what? Who they are right? Wake up, hello? They are saying they are the masters and now I am saying how they will fork out and provide 200 plus years. If they do not, let’s get rid of them once and for all and not let this issue come up again.

They do not tell me who I fight with, who I can love, or who I am allowed to talk to. We are two grown up adults. We have 20 years of love between us. We have 20 more life fulfilling love to come. Who the hell do these people think they are and they better give me and you 200 plus years or else I am going to come after them badly.

This is a war now. They declared war on both me and you. You hang on my side and let me whack their head off and smack the hell out of them okay. Let me… then you can have what is left after I am done with them. I am really mad and turning on you. Hang on my side while I take them down and start breaking stuff.

Read my next blog, it is for you and how I am so happy and fulfilled with you. I have nothing but love for you. I want this so badly, so badly also. When we fight I cannot even work and I have to and lay down. I know I did this to you and I am so sorry, but there are so many lies. So many lies babe, it is hard and so difficult; please help me and be patient while I understand what is going on and can report it. They cut us off. This makes it so much more difficult.

I took the stuff down and was going to stop talking to you because I was almost ready to blow up. My fuse is so short and we were almost in a fist fight and I said to myself, how wrong and how terrible this was. Was this what you want? Do not make it any worse, it is as worse than and as wrong as it will ever get.

Alex.
8/11/2008 2:37:54 PM

P.S. Your buddy Rush will not stop with the ambushes. Now he is giving out my number and putting on military people who I am trying to get rid of while he uses them as a shield. I am fed up with your sweaty fat fooz. Tear him up… yeah Sean is more of a threat to B. Hussein than either you or me, good one. Notice something? All of them represent labor.

JUNE 10, 2008

Ann Coulter has a husband and he is dying to see her. The question is how badly is she dying to see him and is she willing to go up in front of everyone and show them how much she loves him.

I think if the public cannot see exactly how much love and how their relationship is beyond the normal affections; they its pretty clear they were made for each other and they should not be denied what was bound to happen.

I want a woman so badly and I know who I want. I don’t care if I have to get the attention of the world and tell them why I love someone and how much I love them. I don’t care if I make a fool out of myself.

If I love someone and as much as I am trying to show, I will make it clear what I will do to protect the person I love more than anything in the world. If this is not good enough and if this is not able to give her the comfort of knowing how badly I want her or how much I love her, then I have failed.

Naturally, she would have to show me or prove that she will through thick and thin be by my side and I am convinced. It is my turn to say thank you and to return what is long due. Tell Ann Coulter I love her more then the depths of my heart and the pain in me is so severe, I am going to explode.

I have waited all my life for this girl and all the sudden I cannot have her or someone knocks us off course. That is enough to make someone cry for the rest of their life that is so low down it would have to rank as something a liberal would do. Those mother fuckers, I feel a deep sense of hatred and vengeance also.

Ann, tell me you love me and how badly you have waited for me and let’s get married and just get away from this shit babe. I got hit by a freight train and I still cannot see straight or pick myself up without falling down occasionally. Don’t wait till it happens again babe, I beg you, this is an aching pain and I cannot think clearly when it is denied now.

Come on sweetheart, I am trying to show the world how much I truly love you and what we have been through. If anyone can not shed a tear than I know inside they are dead as a beet growing in a garden. Our story is one that is yet to be untold. My love for you has yet to be shown or proved.

Now you Ann, you have already proved your point I think. I also think you cried your brains out trying. I love you so much sweetheart, I swear to God. I just want to get out of here that’s all but I want to take you with me and forever okay. This should have not happened but it did so let’s deal with it together instead of apart. I am trying to show you how I feel and what it felt like. Marry me and let’s get out of here before something else happens.

JUNE 5, 2008

6-5-08

Dear SS or C;

Please allow me to explain. I am approaching 40 and I have always been very worried with my appearance. My hair is looked as “rock star” material; long and never out of place. My hair is the most high maintenance part of me and I enjoy keeping it long. I had some medical problems between 2001 and 2005 where it began to fall out. Since I was in a coma, I had a long period of recovery and I have dealt with the unusual sudden hair loss the best I could. However, because my appearance and model looks has always been important, I am blistered by the battering I had gone through by cold hard facts.

I have never asked or sought comfort in your words. Quite the contrary, you may possibly make fun of my toupee or bad hair now. For me to say I am not embarrassed is not the word. However, someone with model looks do not like when someone defaces their appearance. I do not want any sympathy for you and have encouraged my girlfriend to seek someone who may not bring her such embarrassment and problems; consider an aging lonely politician linked to some spy agency.

You make comments that struck deeply. I must say how my boldness and “choirs de vie” is not filled with a heart of pebbled stones or a head filled with the sands of time. All I can say am I used to be naturally recognized by my looks and facial cuts due to decades of exercise and study. My years of chasing Al Qu”ida affected my appearance and my youthfulness tremendously. I have a scare to talk about, many of them. I do not have the bragging rights or is any where near the creepy toupee looks my girl likes.

Therefore, your speech felt like a terrorist assassination plot which struck deeply in me. It blistered my looks and my confidence to defend myself amid severe pressures I have already by miscreants and venomous “admirers and fans.” My good looks and rock star demeanor have returned but the years of confrontation have made this visible and injurious. Just ignore me okay. I was made with rock star looks and now I am a bad and illogical choice to associate with. I have never sought you out or stalked you to bring grief, you are Wong. I allow people to be the best and encourage them to be free.

I am sure your heart is not filled with rocks or the sands of time. I am sure your appearance and gorgeous looks are a priceless commodity to you. I will not go there and will not deface and defame your physical superiority. I admire it and wish it for me, but for me to strike out at what you are so self conscious about is not in me or my gutless filled heart. You are right and I will cease this. Your cowardice and necessity to keep your life where it is cannot be worried by this “terrorist assassination plot” which has left me nearly crippled and waking at nights in bad spirits. You do not have to do anything.

As a warrior, I accept that my ability to fight back is a necessity in a fair fight or even an ambush or some whacked assassination plot. In that sense, I have been thrown every attack necessary to drive away my previous life or luxurious perversions. If you suggest I will sit here and accept your harsh words about me, then you are wrong. You need not scare me off my gorgeous and smartest in the world. Your criticisms were baseless but I am sure how a liberal would love to get their hands on the material you have there and shove it back down your “mans” throat. Call it a soldier who sacrificed for his nation. Go find yourself someone who is not a loser and such a burden, what is wrong with you. Can I not help the ugliness of the stones in my hearts and the sand in my head?

I have had a very bad life and a very hard one chasing terrorist down and searching for losers and retards that sadistically curse my life and try to strap things to their body and share their grief and attacks. I am not going to sit here and defend myself to the idea that I have a heart filled of stones or a head filled with the sands of time. I simply cannot defend myself and I must submit to this predicament. I will surrender to your argument but I will never back down to “dangerous people.” What cold hard ejaculation is going through your dress for having any wishes upon a US Army soldier in disrepair?

Maybe I was born superior; but my years chasing down terrorist have left me with a misconception that I can please everyone. Blemished, I submit to your comments. If you were in danger and were viciously in hazards; I would viciously and like a demon of violence be there with perfection. I will not have cold hard facts along with me nor the ejaculating mind to comprise with. I would do what I know to be my heart filled of stones and sand. I would never stick around for the pandering gratitude you have graciously offerred. I don't need your medal or your approval, I have what I want and need and thus I have made an effort to escape that which brings me such an unblemished life. Keep your medals, I don't want it and there is no winners fighting terrorists. I would follow my heart before reducing myself to this pandering gratitude I am hearing.

JUNE 4, 2008

6-4-08

Let me explain what happed. After I got out of college, I pursued my career as expected. Then it felt like I hit a brick wall. I began to feel someone holding me back and preventing me from going further or seeing what was going on. I tried to go around that brick wall, under it, over it, and even through it. I gave up and they not only were holding me back, they were trying to inflict as many wounds as possible. I had financial chaos and utter depression, I tried to exercise nonstop and lift weights to get my mind off the situation.

I felt someone was playing cupid with me and interfering in my personal life. When I got fed up and just disgusted, I went to the beach and met your identical twin but 25 years younger. She was the most beautiful girl I had seen and she only wanted to stand beside me and call out my name when I came in the room. People would snap to attention and she loved it. I figured that you had given up because you had to get married and have kids. If you did not do it now, then you will never naturally. I blocked everything out and moved on; I figured I got some trade or someone who knew you could not have kids was replacing you because you had moved on. It was love at first sight and kept my memories of you, everything. However, I know and knew this was not the same person; I know this and ignored it.

Everything felt right and good. You would marry a rich person, I would marry your identical twin and take care of her and start a new life. Then the people holding me back managed to get me put in federal prison. I gave up and stop thinking of your image and face all together. When I got out, I was so overweight and a mess. I had been in so many fist fights. I was drugged up so heavily, fed and kept comatose. I gave up on you did not know why you would not do the logical thing as I did and marry and tried to settle down and have kids finally, it was the last chance. I for certain would not make it and was being held back, I think, and here was your identical twin.

That was ten years ago. Had nobody held me back, we would have been married and you would have had kids or a chance Maybe it would take two years or so to meet, but the chance to have a family would be available to you. Why you chose not to I do not understand. When you are ready to tell me please let me know. I knew I would not make it and I knew you had a chance so I gave up and moved on. But I got your identical twin that was only 22 years old.

When you finally called and told me about artificial insemination and the new scientific developments, it relieved me. The doctors said that even in your elderly ages you can still have kids, but the eggs must be preserved if not already. I am sure you did this and did not give up. Well, missy I am not going to give up either and I am just as mad, maybe even madder. But things are good and it makes me feel good all over again.

Maybe it was a cruel joke to pull us apart. Maybe it was some "birth control" and maybe it was pure "hate" by people who wanted to play cupid or intervene in something they had no business in doing. I was told these people were protecting me and giving me better choices while making my life suffer. I am sure it hurt you more than it hurt me, so that is all I will say. It is like taking someone's heart and ripping it out of their body, then showing it to them to show how powerful they are and how helpless you are.

If this is politico's poser Ann Coulter, then all I have to say is I love and totally adore Ann Coulter, the most gorgeous and classy woman I have ever met. I fell in love with her twin the minute I met her and the same thing. Let me also say that someone had to wait 4 years while I was in federal prison getting in fist fights and jumped by black Muslims and some hairy Jewish guy who tried to jump on my back so I would not kill the Black Muslim. That is how they fight in prison. You know what, when you get in enough fist fights in federal prison, you learn to lock the door and she what kind of person they are. I think they were trying to put you in prison also babe, be careful because it is all bogus. They were some deranged stalking fan and your worst enemy. I fought all of them and did not have any alliance with anyone; it was some crazy crack pot idea. I also had to fight the white supervise in federal prison.

This means that the woman I love with all my heart and would pour my soul over, waited and waited and waited, and I never showed up. When I did, I was fat and recovering from a coma so I could not speak for almost a year. Then maybe she was a little mad because of what happened or who was behind it? I'm sure she did what she could. I’m my sweetest sweetheart has had a chance and has thought about leaving many times given how it was so long of a wait and I never showed up. So I have never seen a grown woman cry or bawl her brains out, but I’m sure sometimes the ignorance and hate in this world by the leftist commies make people disgusted and feel this violent impulse. I would love to whine and cry about human rights but I am beyond feelings. So if anyone needs a round of applause, then it is her. But if it was meant to be, then someone made it harder because maybe she wanted kids. That is almost 8 years waiting and constant missing or wrong timing. There are some people who leave a mark on your life and some people who are forever marked to make you feel good all over. It makes you feel good over and over. So if anyone has the right to be mad, then it’s her. I had been sad so many days and wrote so many poems in my sadness hoping to meet up with someone I had known a long time ago and was just waiting patiently and I had no idea.

JUNE 10, 2008

Hey,

This is Alex. You and I know I am destined to marry Ann Coulter and things got really messed up. Seems like we are pushing the envelope too far and got a little surprise which was a quick wake up call; I still want to be destined to marry Ann Coulter. So here me out okay SS and See and give me a moment of time.

I feel there is some conspiracy and the liberals feel that I or Ann had something to do with the death of this John Kennedy Jr. I was too busy being attacked and wounded to be thinking about some guy I neither know nor care for. I doubt if Ann even had any idea about his plans or has any involvement. She is not a stalker and she does not follow liberals. She might follow me, but why follow someone you just hate.

So maybe my 3 year hiatus in prison was some crazy crack pot conspiracy theory. I took that punch and was so heavily injured my sister got me a passport. So when I got the strength, I began to head for the border. I want to marry Ann now and have kids. However, my intentions were not to stop at the border, they would not allow me to cross even if I had my passport, military papers, social security, etc… they said to get dual citizenship by acquiring Canadian citizenship first and they would expedite it. Then my home got invaded and more problems.

If I was destined to marry Ann Coulter and have kids and settle down, then lets say we are pushing this as far as it can go. Ann has passed the age of 44 and cannot have babies any longer. The doctors said they can place an fertilized egg in her until she is 70 years old, so that is another 30 years worth of child bearing years for her. I love her so much but this is such an ordeal. I feel that Al Qu”Ida got a little too close for me and someone called them who was doing something to me in Virginia. Ann was living in Maryland at the time and I knew where she was. This just got too dangerous.

If you ask Ann, then you tell her it is too dangerous to be playing around. Had they not stopped me, I probably would be up north and in Canada trying to get my books published and my satellites built. I honestly do not know what is going on or what my role is, all I know is the liberals are dead in my book. If I ever catch up with them or ever get the chance, they are dead in my book. The pain and the injuries they put on me have never healed.

I have always loved Ann and never wanted to just leave. It is kind of hard when you have Al Qu”Ida or their leaders on your ass though. I really want to marry Ann and have kids with her. I love her more than the world and she is truly everything. Now I am so confused and so what to do? I was planning to change the plans and go to San Diego and then go across to Mexico. Maybe come back again and live on my military pension. Canada seemed like the logical choice.

So Ann Coulter has stopped me now. I have told her my feelings and how this was so messed up. I have tried to tell her that I was getting hit harder than she even knows. That is why I am on the border now and why I did not stop; I am not joking. I tried several times to cross into Canada and got stopped. I asked my brother to arrange my next move to Mexico I figure even if I do not speak Spanish.

Ann if this is you, listen to me babe and my love. I love you and I have spilled my guts to you. I am so hurt and I am so deeply injured by this whole ordeal. Do you blame me for turning my back and now getting this crap about “moving on” which really hurt also? It did hurt when I heard it originally. I have had so many bad things happen I do not even know how to challenge one in court. When I do, they refuse to take the complaint and law suit. That has been how it has been for a decade. I cannot sit here and have my life shredded and destroyed any longer. I was also trying to find a Canadian girl and use her to move or settle down. I didn’t care.

Ann sweetheart, listen to me if you love me. I want to marry you and have the kids we were supposed to. It is kind of difficult under the circumstances. I am also abandoning and ditching my condo in Virginia. My cars are stored with a family friend. If you are here to say something and want me to come to you, then you better hurry. Things are getting hairy, things are already as messed up as they will get, I have thrown my cards down and found out who the players are. This is why I am headed for Mexico. All I have to do is meet up with the British, pretty easy.

Either you take that plunge or wait longer. I cannot get anymore mad about this or take any more days without you. I am getting pummeled or was and it is revenge. They have revenge in their blood; the only thing that has saved me is my cards. I have yet to throw them down, it is my ticket out. I find it very hard to believe that you have contacted me in such a predicament to just say hi. I am aware of what happened to you and trust me; I got it ten times worse and daily. Just tell me what to do or what you want me to do. We missed or something because everything is messed up and out of whacked. I am more than mad and I am sure you are also because of this. I am surprised you do not feel betrayed I abandoned or walked away from you leaving you out there all by yourself.

I am so sorry for forgetting you. I love you more than my own life but this is so hard and so difficult. I am trying to communicate to you how deeply I am hurt and what I feel the best way I can. I love you so much and with all my heart, I swear. So, you have stopped me on the border and right before I turn around and try to head towards Mexico. We can still get married and have babies. All you have to do is close your eyes and tell me what you want to name them okay, I love you and that is all I can offer, my love. You have all of my love and everything inside me. Why the fuck is I turning away from you and almost lost you? Why are these people holding me down and doing this to you?

You look ten times more beautiful then when you started your first book. You know how I feel beaten up “a beating they will never forget.” You have left the area also. If we are going to make it or make this work, then it has to be now okay. I am not going to say nothing or make up your mind. I figure you have gone through hell and have been hurt enough. To say you do not cry is a lie, I will never leave okay. We are too close and this is more painful than you can even know. Yes, it feels like death but when you are getting pumuled and you life and career is how it is, why are you sticking around with me? See what I mean, that is true love and why. You caught me right in the middle of my change in venue to Mexico.

I would kiss your feet. You know how much I love you. You know what we have been through together and you know how much I need you. I want to have our kids and be with you so bad but I waited and waited and you just never showed up so I left. Maybe you tried to help and then left when I let go also. It has been so long and this ordeal has been so difficult Ann. I need you to make up your mind and take immediate actions; this is no time to be shooting blanks. I am not getting younger either and soon I am not going to be so handsome to you, trust me. These people are vicious. Do you remember what happened last time? Well, can you blame me for heading to the border? I need you so bad and please come and get me while you have me or have something to hold onto. I just figured you moved on.

Ann, here is that song by Richard Marx, I think you know it. I am not giving up on your promise or my promise, never. You waited to long or did I? I got smashed and pummeled. We are missing 4 or 5 years from our lives, at least I am. I do not care about fame, fortune, and money and you know this. You also know I already have all of that, so hurry up or walk away from it like I had 20 years ago. Maybe you never forgave me for that but now its ten years after that. I love you and forever will with all my heart. At least be honest and leave it alone if you choose that. I have written to you already about how I feel. I screwed you once, now it is mutual I guess? I am not mad okay and understand as I have said. I just have nothing left inside to give anymore.

JUNE 9, 2008

Dear SS and See;

Hi. I tried to tell you how hurt and how confused my life has been since oh… 1998. I cannot really speak of very many good things since then. Moreover, from 2001 to 2004 I spent life incarcerated and empty. The only time when I had a brief moment of happiness and sense of peace was in 2000 and meeting the twin of Ann Coulter at Ocean City, MD. She was the prettiest and most pure woman I have ever met. Women sensed her power and flocked around her. She actually kind of fought another girl for me who I had hooked up with in the bar. So Ann Coulter’s twin is named Lori Settnek and I met her at The Paddock in 2000. Ocean City is a beach which I have been going to since my teens. Lori said she had been waiting for me to come around for two years as if I showed up late.

I cannot express the hurt and sense of loss, I simply cannot. There are things that I cannot explain and do not know. After I finally returned home and was released from prison, which caused me an extreme bitterness, the first thing my sister did was take me to get a passport. That was the very first thing we did. I was not sure how things would turn out and I was just trying to get back on my feet.

In 2005 I bought a condo in Virginia and several cars. I was already retired from the military. In all honesty, if Ann Coulter came around, I would neither recognize her or even talk to her. I was so devastated and hurt by what happened that I vowed I would go find Lori who was just a simple girl who really liked me a lot. I mean a lot and she looks just as or better than Ann Coulter, totally gorgeous.

Along came a girl, who lived in Maryland, for whom I began to date. I was basically trying to move on if I could. I cannot tell you how hurt I was; in all honesty I could break down in a snap of a finger. If someone pushed it or wanted to be cruel, I cannot fight back and would. I am beginning to get the same feelings with you. Someone has been playing cupid with me bombarding me with who I hated and did not like. I got the feeling they kept saying “give us a chance” or “give me a chance.” So in 2005 I met an 18 year old Russian Jewish model.

I am not going to lie, we messed around. She was more trying to tease me and get me excited then pulling back and I felt she wanted a serious relationship. She was just very commanding and it caused a lot of problems. I am a hard drinker and been a hard drinker since age 14. Also I like to smoke a lot, since I have been around 10 or 12 years old. If there is anyone who needs to feel guilty for hurting someone they love, then it will be me. I used to be a stud or good with girls. The only reason why I did not sleep with all of them was because I wanted a serious relationship and a girl to call my own. I have never wanted anything else but a good woman. Had I found her at age 17, then I would be with her and married now. I am a hard partier and my friends have partied even harder than fraternity brothers, it is a misspent youth and a level of juvenile delinquency.

When I and the Russian model went to NYC, we stayed at some hotel in Manhattan and I passed out from drinking. She took a bath and woke me up in the middle of the night, 3am and got naked. Nothing happened it was just a tease and a pitch for a serious relationship. It was erotic and I had not been with anyone for so long. I haven’t had a worthy relationship since high school. So I was very lonely and miserable but nobody could take the pain away and I could not move on. I read several articles on Ann Coulter and Andrew Stein and it seemed almost exactly the same. They said how the two were kissing in SOHO, which was more than what I did. Here is the article:

Ever since they were first caught swapping spit at Soho House, Coulter and Stein's relationship was one for the ages. As in all great love stories, the two came from different worlds: He was a former City Council president and Democrat, she was the author of, If Democrats Had Any Brains, They'd be Republicans. Coulter gave Stein complexity. Stein gave Coulter a soul. Their heady two-and-a-half-month courtship kept us all in thrall. Why couldn't they work it out? "We split because of irreconcilable differences," Stein told the Post. But really — shouldn't he have known that going in? Who doesn't have irreconcilable differences with Ann Coulter?

So I was looking around, call it spying on Ann Coulter and found some things I did not like. It seemed as though someone linked me to her and used me to hurt her and hurt me using her. No need, because I am beyond hurt. I will admit this too you right now and in the most honest way; I am too hurt to hear of Trieste and rumors about the love of my life. It is a very fragile situation and I will walk away very easily no matter how negative the impact is. I am just too hurt call it destroyed. I don’t know what happened to the one I loved. I don’t know if they were able to destroy her also. I am and I wish her happiness in life and I am just hurt. It feels like your girl got raped or is being raped and she don’t want to say anything to you. Everybody has a pressure point.

So I was looking and they say that Ann Coulter moved to Florida the same time when I was released from prison. She then bought a house in Palm Beach, Florida for like 2 million dollars. Then the state of Florida hit her with some voter fraud thing. Then someone was heckling her in her new home in Florida. It is the Jews and they have a lot of money; they are behind it also along with several other liberals. When I met Ann, she lived in a small two story house and was beginning her career. Now she is some big shot and lives with millionaires, people who swap wives, country club folks, etc… Me I’m military and I like finer things in life but I feel detached from Ann now and out of place. I just feel too hurt to admit it. Again, I am in a situation I do not know what to do or say.

If she wants to be mad at me, then she has a right to be for the Russian model. I don’t know I see it as rumors and innuendoes. Then now they are spreading her address all around the internet and blogs. It says Ann Coulter lives at 242 Sea breeze Lane in Palm Beach. Yeah, sure I will make sure to drop by and say hi. I am on the Canadian border, I am ready and prepared to cross the border and disappear. I doubt if Ann Coulter has something to say to me, she will get a chance after I cross into Canada. I do not know what is going on in all honesty.

All I know is someone has literally invaded my life, turned it upside down, threatened who I thought was you, put me in jail, and just took everything I had. Hell, it might be someone you know or someone I know. If you are Ann Coulter and you are trying to stop me and ask me to not say goodbye, you have to understand that there is a time for pride and a time to show your soul. You can give me all the money in the world, I would not care. If someone is trying to destroy Ann Coulter and thinks I am linked to her, then they have. I am destroyed and so hurt. They are on the verge of destroying her or my love life. I admit, there is nothing or any smut on Ann Coulter on the internet which is really weird for a single woman like her. She is hot, smart, and rich; she can have anyone she wants. She lives around the most successful people and its just I feel so out of place. I just want to write this book and cross into Canada or figure out how to “forget.” Maybe she is the reason behind this because she is so hot and around all of these people.

I totally adore Ann and I know life has been so hard for her and I wish her the best of luck. But I am lonely, I am miserable, and I am crushed. If she has linked herself to me then I do not know why she is trying to talk to me or try so hard. I feel like I married her 20 years ago in some secret marriage but she is going to be upset because I wasn’t told of some things or this cupid problem. She will be mad at me or the reverse, I don’t know. I do not see any reason why she would want to find me or talk to me; our lives are so different now. Things are so different and out of place. One day I am mad, one day I am happy, one day I feel loved; she to me is just too secretive. If she is trying to prove something, then its time and do not take it for granted. If she is trying or trying to prove something, I do not know why she waited so long and for things to get so messed up.

I am not saying I do not love her. I am not saying she does not love me. I am saying that when you love someone, you must devote everything to them and stick to that through thick and thin and I do not know if we have done that; I know one of us did not. I do not know if you heard that and I am not good enough of a liar, but I know one of us has not followed some promise we made a long time ago and one which was made in secrecy but forgotten due to lives destroyed, miserable feelings, and a sense of totally loosing oneself. I do not believe in cheating or wife swapping or things not about marriage and family; but this cupid problem and holding me back from what I love has devastated me.

I am a little jealous and I admit it. I feel inadequate and I admit this. If we made a vow then I know I broke it and then buried it then moved on. I am sure she did the same so here we are trying to figure out who is going to cut the other’s throat first. Do you know how that makes you feel to hurt someone you love and adore with all your heart and will give your life for? Terrible, plain god damn fucking terrible like a knife got stabbed in your heart and it will not come out. So I hope this is important enough for “the” Ann Coulter to contact me. Life is dangerous enough as it is and so hurtful. Right now life is getting more and very dangerous. I am sure she has been through hell also. Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, why is it hurting so badly now?

Did we both break the secret pact and if so why are we sitting here and playing each other again? So I will keep this professional and as it is SS and See; don’t change anything okay. If I can just use you to block the sun for a little then allow me, then I will be gone okay. The secret pact, we can say goodbye and how we both mutually broke it because of the circumstances of others who successfully destroyed us or tore us apart. I am ripped apart and you know this and you are not even here if you are Ann. I will make sure to jot down on my planner to drop by 242 Sea Breeze Lane okay that sounds like an idea. I have nothing but love and love Ann to my death; but I want to know what happened to our secret pact and why things turned out so messed up. Was it me or her?

Our secret pact was to find love in this world and be everything for each other, I am so hurt by this and it is like someone killed my wife or spouse again. I went through this once already. Was I supposed to come by and see you in Maryland or just knock on your door in Palm Beach? That is insane but I will say this, I would marry Ann Coulter and spend the rest of my life with her if we can sit down and talk to her. She has flagged me down perhaps and in the last quarter of the game when everything counts but nothing matters. Nothing matters anymore; have I lost the very last thing I love and totally cherish? I don’t hate Ann; I totally love her with all my heart, why do I feel like this? If this is Ann, how do we stay together after hell and make this back to good?

If you want to answer: like me… they are all losers or someone you do not even want and I cannot even say anything.

1. Guccione: 1 date or some beau relationship
2. Stein: what in the world and why is this so messed up, are you doing it to me or am I doing this to you? How do I stop it, tell me please.
3. I love Ann and only Ann. I will accept her twin but now I am told I was set up again by cupid. I feel so cheap and why am I not with the girl who I love more than my life and am a perfect match, which is really scary! I am a lost heart and a romantic. As hurt as I am I will rip my heart out and give it to anyone.

JUNE 6, 2008

Dear SS & See;

I want to know what you are doing after the show; ha, I think I know already. It is a funny but inspiring idea how you showed up at just the right place and the right time to witness something people have never seen before or know how to. Come here, no closer, wait closer… “I think you are the most awesome woman walking this earth and if you were Anne Coulter, then you know I love you more than my own life and will never ever leave your side.” Now if I could just kidnap her and ask her to say the same! She is definitely everything and I do not even know how she can go into public. One day it’s a stalker or heckler, the next it’s a pandering future husband.

So I wish she would freeze her eggs so that I can track it down one day and buy into that conservative genius and beauty queen looks of her. By then, I should be rich and with a stable family so it would be so lovely to hold onto the idea that my daughter looks, acts, and thinks like the one and only Anne freaking Coulter. Ha, I wonder what my fugitive and future wife will say to that idea.

Now if I could find a woman who looks like her and think like her, I’d be set. I could be like Tanto and the Lone Ranger or Tattoo and Mr. Roark on Fantasy Island. It such a shame I was not able to meet her a long time ago and I wonder how she would react to my constant “I want to have fun” attitude. Wait, I forgot to mention I am a great cook and I love to cook also! I was locally ranked in my home economics class (ha).

Okay so here is the thing, I know I am not as strong as she is. But then, she knows she is not as weak as I am. That leaves this big giant gap between whether or not I am tough enough for her love or am I tough enough for her love. You know, not many guys wonder what it is like to be married to the “Anne Coulter.” It’s an interesting thought but one which sounds totally awesome. Even if I never get the chance to meet her or pass acquaintance, I would not mind having her children. Ha, what would a father do with little Anne Coulters running around like robots! See, you in the next lifetime because I cannot take the suspense!

So after reading your stuff and learning little tidbits about you which “shhhhh” me up real quick; I figured out I had lost myself. I was chasing a ghost that I will never find. I am chasing a ghost until I bleed or lost myself deep in this ghost. You see, you put these standards on women which Anne Coulter has then you look around and it’s like, “so where the hell are they?” She is a one in a million ghost and I have only found one person on this earth as pretty (or similar in looks). It’s too bad I married her and had to look hard to find her!

I guess what I am saying when it comes to love is you can loose yourself in someone else. When you do, that loss is so great, you can never overcome it; or if you do, it can make the present better. However, there is another place; another sense of love and space beyond this present. Maybe that is why they call it loving someone forever, how can you love someone so much you can never love again? That is like what I said, love can make you bleed and bleed badly.

When we met, I said you were not tough enough and now you are tougher than I am, so how can I possibly forget? Ha, even a guy as macho as I am has a deep sense of love and respect, imagine that. Who would think that I would meet the “Anne Coulter” one day and tell her “now wipe away those tears and give me a hug.” I wonder if I am tougher than her. The song goes like this “As long as you’ll be my friend at the end.”

So how long have I been walking with my people and where the hell they been? Heck, it is really tough to find such an idea because LIBERALS are EVERYWHERE and driving me CRAZY. And you know what, when it gets all insane and crazy, I take advantage of the fact that you may be, I may already be with you, or how we were all along. Is that not crazy and not a crazy thought from a military man? Well, I am not talking about you specifically, but I know if and when I meet Anne and she takes me home with her, I will be with her till the end of time. Watch, bank on it okay, I’m dead serious. There is not one woman walking this earth who can resist my irresistible charm and good looks! (Oh my god, that was actually a joke)

Ha, say you’re sorry because you are crushing me now! Not crushing me as in rolled over and crushed me, just crushing me, yeah! Well, at least you get to stand beside me in pain while you can watch me bleed on stage right! Gee, thanks a lot. Hmm, are you going to bleed for me or with me? That is another interesting thought. Dammit, I really hate this idea how everyone is saying Anne Coulter was with them or with me! I’d rather it is me then them right?

Wait; there was something very wrong with that statement because you are not as strong before chasing a ghost then after you chase a ghost that is deep inside you. Who is that ghost Anne Coulter is chasing? She says she is chasing Mr. Wright but who is that ghost deep inside her? Oh, time out here, why is he not with her if she is “the” Anne Coulter! Ha, I am going to pay for that one by some greasy grinning way.

Well, all I am doing now is waiting because I lost myself. I hope I have not lost other things in my life, which I know were lost, they are all gone. So I wait and wait for a ghost deep inside of me. Flashes of tears shooting in the night and more flashes of tears conspiring to tear us down. So I heard the tears calling to me… and you want to know what they said? Nope, you are not allowed! (Big brining grin) Okay, since you are a dear friend, I will tell you okay sexy, smart, and so mucho denieros.

Those voices said how clear it was at the bottom. How can we get clean again when we can’t even keep our love alive? We cannot get back again, never. It’s lost and it is gone, maybe deep inside someone else. Sorry, I am trying to keep it together also but someone always comes along and makes me loose it. We cannot get back again nor anymore, does that bring a smile to anyone else?

So now the secret is out sexy and smart, I hope you take the best of me deep inside of you because we cannot go back and everything is out of whack. I wonder if “the” Anne Coulter ever asks if she should try to “keep it together” the best I can by momentary lapses of why we can’t get back again. Okay, since my thought is this far, one last one okay. Let’s say I was in danger or something, I will sleep well knowing I’m going down and you were no longer around, now is that tough enough for your love or the love of “the” Anne Coulter?

Think about it and lets…
Cyber


(Three Doors Down, Kryptonite)

I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

June 5, 2008

Dear SS and C "aka ": XXX;

In my search for answers I life, I have sometimes ran into an impasse of grave questioning to understand both the motives and the responsibilities of others as they pertain to my own. I offer you a list of my grave questioning.

Inside me, deep is a cold hard hurt. It is a place where the sun does not shine. It is an area where secrets are kept and missions are processed. It is in this deep abyss where I am riddled with sores and the neutrinos fired at me which do not seem to pass through. Hence, I absorb them and try to hold my head high while I slide sideways and a little at a time.

I have never asked anything special from you. I have never come out and said, “I just would wish that girl would speak for me for once.” I do not owe that girl anything and she does not owe me. It saddens me while I sit here at my desk and remember distance images I have of someone. Someone I have yet to know but know too well.

In the dark of this riddled area of disaster, my life has an inescapable miserable truth. It becomes hell of me to think a death could come by riot by persons, unbeknownst to us all, which hath not loved but need no love back. In this darkness there is a reflection. It too is just as pained by the grief why it is such a dark place and a deep and deeper yearning to shed light onto a rot that grows.

I am pained to look at you. I am pained to think the human spite delivered to me would also be the reception delivered to such a beautiful individual. There are not many souls living in the darkness which must hold onto the only thread in life which will keep them alive. In this war where every man is against each other, how can it be that my silence is equaled by another? Last to discover, I am pained.

I am pained to witness this despised hurt that which rot in my growth and makes my affections more cursed by love which I reflected but never asked back. Who hath not loved is loved back. I am not able to hide this as well. I am not able to stand before a crowd and least it be known, not be affected.

This dark spot is indeed a hurtful and painful area. It is a gladiator stage for the strongest of this world. What happens in that stage is the deep sadness which I am not able to communicate with you but can only give back? I do not have anything to give to the most beautiful woman in the world and a girl which has proven herself the most unwanted one in a million stars lit nights for all to see but guess.

I wait for a shot of adulterous affairs or some painless knowledge of a girl who was raped beyond her consciousness and knowledge of what occurred. Perhaps her boyfriend and future compatriot had watched and tried to stop; perhaps he was so pained that he vowed not to return. Sometimes when inside you are so pure and so comforted, the best answer is not the answer. Thus I wait for the deliverance of bad news and another cut in a slow but wilting darkness of grief inspired by the most incredible person I have yet to walk this earth and known.

I cannot separate the thought of how intelligent you are and my equal or greater for I am more a fighter by no words than to use my mental skills to outwit an opponent. However, in fights of the heart there is never a winner, only losers. In this regard, I am a loser. In this regard, I remain in this darkness and alone, against a wind which I neither know or enjoy but I know it must be done and I know I must not stop even if the rot inside tells me to. If it is any comfort, then I ask you to get behind me and let the wind carry me away to that darkness I know already.

The sun shine upon you and as a fighter and one of no words, I accept this with no complaints. It is my wish for you to know us more closely and how I had reached out to you in a deep sleep. One which felt like a dream and one which I was not able to wake from; it pained me to know this and it made me feel much better to tell my partner. I accept many things in life and have not one fear. I can only imagine the pain and grief you must endure to watch also. It is a feeling of a growing rot and a hurt in a darkness which keeps you silenced and quiet.

I am unable to say have mercy on me for I accept my uncanny predicament. I choose to share with you my mystery of a better day and know what to expect. I am riddled by thoughts of being ravaged and eaten naked by someone I do know and who is seeking and plotting my ruin. Death comes to riot and easily. I hope that you will grow stronger and healthier. I hope that you envision that which I showed you to be the strength inside. The ability to float with the wind and to sense when it blows to respect it and not fear it; the cruelties I do not fear, it is the love which I fear the most.

You my dear are the most perfect creature of this earth. The smartest woman I have ever witnessed with my deceitful and calculating logical madness. The most beautiful by any standards I have seen for any woman of my age. I have never upon my wildest dream, think I would be waking from a hell of fire and ice with such unspoken quiet and beauty as what I see before me. I wish to share this with you because you seem to be the only partner that has ever been there. You will have to save that story for a long night and a taste of what you will feel.

Tell Anne Coulter to stop sugar coating the liberals, they are not really that good. That is they think they are so much better or they think others are so much worse than them. It is despicable to witness and be lost of words but I do not blame her because I figure there is so much you can get away with before the line is crossed. Anne Coulter is accepted by the liberals only because she is light on them and withholds the idea that they should be buried deep in the veil of evil they fear themselves. They are too easy on her as she is too easy on them.